Depression Everywhere

klear6

I am severely depressed - mostly because of what is going on in my family. I suffer from epilepsy and ADHD with severe social anxiety. My husband is bipolar and is incredibly depressed and angry with everything right now and nothing I do seems to help him or make our relationship any easier. I know it is not all one persons fault. He believes there is absolutely nothing to be happy about and we fight all the time. I just want things to be better. He was discharged from the us air force before we got married (because of his condition) and our income is only from the VA. It is not enough to make it. We have 4 kids, 3 of whom are age 3 or under, including a 9 month old baby girl. I tried to get some kind of disability income but the legal aid lawyers said I could not collect social security or anything else because I had not worked a sufficient number of years in my life. I am only 31; I am overwhelmed, nearly broke, depressed beyond belief, and worried about my marriage and children. My mother (whom we live with) is also severely depressed. She suffers from some severe problem that the doctors cannot identify. It causes incredibly bad tremors, pain in her legs, and strange sensations. She is scared and sad and has started rewriting her will and reserving a plot at the cemetery. I am freaked out but need to maintain a calm exterior around her so that she doesn't get even more scared. Then I have nobody to talk to because I always seem to fight with my husband and my reclusiveness has made me lose all my friends. My 2 year old son is deaf in one ear and refuses to interact with people for the most part. I am also very worried about him. He seems to have no desire to learn to talk and mostly pushes me away unless he is hungry or needs to be changed. I have the school district working with him but with all the referrals and the fact that I can't drive and everyone feels like they are stretched so thin. I am scared to find out what is wrong with him because I just want him to be happy and he only seems to laugh when he is tickled. I am sorry I just left such a long post. Thanks for taking the time to read it.

Richard_Scope

Hi klear6
I'm really sorry to read about what you and your family are going through at the moment. It sounds really tough. Am i right to assume you live in the States? Have you tried contacting ADHD support groups or voluntary organisations?