Can’t get a loan

kj1892

hi everyone hope everyones good so been away for a while could do with a little help if any 

So ive had a lot of death in my life starting with my first daughter who was nearly 4 o and burried her 3 times yes 3 due to the alderhey organ scandle 1996 when she died her heart in 2000 and 87 pieces of her in 2001 me mum the year after my brother my aunt my dad i have a disabled daughter another with 2 metal rods up her spine so on and so on anyway recently like 8-9 months ago finally got diagnosed with CPTSD with trauma psycosis and on the 3rd of November just gone my partner dropped dead in the living room she was only 36 and to top it off my youngest 3 aged 5 , 6 and 15 were watching me give her cpr for 15 minutes saying don’t die mummy wake up mummy so as yer can guess Xmas was a huge sadness and financially difficult has my income was halved instantly which sorry I went on there but my point is I’m trying to get £400 payday loan and no one’s saying yes but I have my car my phones my credit cards which I maxed out for Xmas just to put me over till next payday so has anyone got any loan company you can suggest as it would be a massive help thanks