Thank you @LiamO_Dell, @steve51 and @Sam_Scope ...You're very kind.. I feel like i'm drowning, at every turn a door is shut..
You don't have to get dramatic, I'm totally okay...
I'm not going to broadcast the ins and outs of my problems publically.. It's just I feel very stuck and im doing my best to try and change things but every avenue seems pretty much sealed off ... I'm in between medication at the moment, everything takes so long and I'm coming to terms with the fact i'll never work, i'm in chronic agony, effectively being disabled puts you at the bottom of the heap, you may not all agree with that but it's my considered opinion... This government also makes you feel that you aren't worth anything.
It seems if I voice my concerns about how I feel, I'm feeling sorry for myself, the person I feel least sorry for is me.
All I want is to be independent and not depend on anyone..