Hello
Im again laying awake at night because of pip
I'm had high care and mobility on dla, we know that dsnt matter though... I also had a indefinite award.
Pip have given me no points for journey and planning... despite lots of evidence and my husband stating times i have had to be rescued , picked up, helped and how he is almost always messaging me during a journey and meets me at bus stops most of the time. He went into detail for each point. And still no points on this renewal.
My friend was my advocate for my Mr last time and she went into great detail as well that was ignored then so this time my husband really worked hard to give lots of examples and explanation and named a app for disabled people i use and backed it all up but still none all they said was they deemed me able to do it but didn't say how they decided that.
We don't feel mentally able to challenge it and don't feel anything will change even if we do as Mr changing anything has low success...
We pleaded and begged that they give me a longer award as only being left alone for 1.5 years is making life unbearable....
The stress upset anxiety and how it takes happiness from life as its always hanging over ..
We said how the process affects me and my health and they don't care as they only awarded 2 years which is actually always 1.5
I feel they are being purposely cruel i have a genetic disorder its degenerative its not getting better i have adhd, cognitive disorder and my mental health is affected by these things that will not go away
I dnt understand why other than to be cruel why its short...
I don't know what to do
I know this sounds confusing but it makes me not want to live ... I don't want to die, I dont want to leave my kids and husband and family I want to live depsite depression and pain and suffering I like life but I do want to stop having to fight this all my life on top of my disability... I cant keep going through this is breaking me...I wouldn't take my life its just how it makes me feel if that makes sense... please don't flag up as anything serious I didn't mean it as anything like I'll take my life its just making my life unbearable...
I feel like im being made to prove I'm innocent of a crime... they say its to get you what you need but then if that's true they would make this so it's not crippling and so hard...
I don't get how they can say the think i can do x or dnt struggle with y when they don't have evidence.
I wish we had enough money that I didn't need pip then they could keep their money and I could live happier.
I feel like im missing out on things with my children because its always something I worry about.
It's not fair...