How can I express my emotions to people who are not part of my family?

Katiedimelow20

Whenever I go out on my own when my mum isn't with me, I sometimes struggle with showing my emotions to people who aren't part of my family in real life. Is one of the members of staff. I'm ok with showing emotion to other people that are my friends. I'm okay withs showing some men my emotions to me. Some women I can sometimes express my emotion and other women I seem to express my emotion. Gaming as help with expressing more of my emotions. I can express my emotions fine when it comes to sports. It seems to sometimes be happening on Wednesday. That go to a group with my friends with. Last time when I did cry at Wednesday group but didn't seem to end well and did say to stop crying by one member of staff. Similar thing happened with cars when I was scared of cars coming near me. Same member of staff said I shouldn't be scared of cars coming near me. Now I'm seeming to struggle to show or express my emotion from just one member of staff. Other members of staff seem to be okay with me. The only other time it did happen was when was in high school which I really hate very much. II just wanted to finish high school and I was swearing sometimes throughout high school. I will sometimes will swear but I will not do in front of children.. I'm been okay. I think it did start in high school when I did start struggling with my emotion. is was special education school. i'm not in any sort of special education section anymore.

Rachel_Scope

Hi @Katiedimelow20. It can be really difficult to express feelings sometimes. When you say you struggle to express your emotions what are you referring to? Is it more the bigger emotions of crying or not being able to express your feelings, such as feeling happy or worried?

Also, what is the Wednesday group that you attend?

Katiedimelow20

the group is part of Macintyre charity . strugging to show or express my emotion to one member of staff of didn't seem to noicted and just comes with me you don't need to be scared of balloon . did repeated me again . I got fear of balloon popping . i never liked and dislike loud noise to ,

Rachel_Scope

Were you unable to tell them that you are scared of balloons popping and loud noises? I'm sorry they made you feel uncomfortable. Is there another member of staff that you feel able to speak to?

Katiedimelow20

@Rachel_Scope my mum told another member of stuff that told the one member of stuff and didn't noticed my emotion on myself and come to tell you don't be upset or scared of balloon . is was in public and was in rugby stadium . the other time is did happen but is was being scared of cars that i didn't need to be scared of cars in different area .treat other of my friends were better tried to help with my emotion . that one member of staff seem to be annoyed at me when i do get upset or scared of something . I'm not been great with showing my emotion unless if like sport or gaming that i show quite a lot of them .

Rachel_Scope

It sounds like a difficult situation and I'm sorry the staff weren't considerate of your feelings. Dealing with your emotions might be helped by talking through things with someone. Here's some information about mental health support https://www.scope.org.uk/advice-and-support/manage-mental-health . It has links to different services so you can find what suits you best.

SHOUT might be a good option for you as it just involves texting. Text SHOUT to 85258 and you'll be connected with a volunteer who can talk through your feelings and what support you need 😊

Katiedimelow20

@Rachel_Scope is was just one member of staff that seem to get annoyed for me crying one time in different places and did went to talk to my mum but i not sure what rules that phone are not allow to be used ?

Katiedimelow20

Update. I’m been okay but seem to struggle with showing my emotions to others people thar are not part of my family . Sometimes my family seem to make fun of me and I’m not where and get confused about and can get bit upset about l. Is mainly my mum that seeem mains problem. That I try to get away from my mum but I can’t do when comes social events or going on dates . My mum take the lead and both like different types of guys for me .

Rachel_Scope

Hi @Katiedimelow20 lovely to hear from you 😊

It seems really difficult for you, especially when your mum is with you most of the time. You need to try and focus on doing something nice for yourself. Focusing on something like a game can help you forget your worries for a while. Have you tried any mindfulness exercises? They can help to clear your head. Here's some information about the STOP technique which is taken from Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) which is something I went through myself and it really helped me. Maybe it's something you could try? https://cogbtherapy.com/mindfulness-meditation-blog/mindfulness-stop-skill

Katiedimelow20

@Rachel_Scope yep thanks for suggesting I been tracking my moods log on my new google pixel watch 2 that Body response is has be bit helpful. I have done some mindfulness stuff thar we’re not exercising but was like more group threapy that I only been a few times from nhs but didn’t do much . I try other threapy and said that I don’t need to anymore l for also from type therapy from nhs . I get worried abihr sometimes quite a lot .