Hello, I have posted on here a few times but really struggling with everything in my life right now.
I sadly lost my Mum in December 2023 and I was an unpaid carer looking after her for 9 years until she passed away.
I'm autistic and have mental health issues, I am in receipt of ESA and PIP, and have tried permitted work on ESA in volunteer and paid employment in the past, however I haven't been able to sustain working no more than 4 months in a paid job due to the hierarchy of being bullied by people in authority, and I'm applying for jobs and getting absolutely no where even with an AI computer sorting out my CV and cover letter, I'm getting support with the Health and Work Programme, but I don't feel really like they are helping me they are more focused on CV building and cover letter writing which I understand is their purpose, but I would like a work placement or even work experience and to be given an opportunity to exist and not feel like a complete and utter failure.
I am having a lot of anxiety and feel extremely invisible and alone in the world, especially with the antisocial behaviour in my living situation and continuously applying for jobs and going above and beyond and getting rejection after rejection, even with not disclosing my autism and mental health issues.. (I live in a rural area so it's either seasonal jobs or care work)..Cornwall unfortunately.
Just wondered if there is anyone else like me in my position? I just feel really suicidal and alone.
