I made myself vomit

idk

I am not feeling very well today, it's the birthday of a young family member, they are seven, and have gone out with other family for a meal, and bowling.

Old muggins here was not invited to take part, the only involvement I got was to say happy birthday, and hang around for the agro of getting children ready to go out.

So I've just been lying down for a while, feeling sorry for myself because no one else is. Then I get a message from a family member with just drama about something, and I really don't want to be involved, or say anything.

I'm not a big fan of children, but you know, I'd like a chance to atleast decline an invite.

Anyway, I grabbed a bottle of rum, only like a 5th left, and drank it far to quickly. I don't normally turn to drink when depressed, but I just thought "**** it" and drank it.

Following from that, very watery vomit, and the worst part of it is that I don't care, and I'd do it again.

I'm not going to do it again because I already drank it all, and I'm safe back in bed, just needed to vent.

Rosie_Scope

That sounds rough @idk, sorry you're not feeling so good and were left out of the birthday events. It's rubbish when you're not invited to something. As you say, even if you know you might have said no to something it's always nice to be asked. We'll be sending you a quick email today so please look out for that 😊

Have you got anyone you can talk to about how this made you feel, like a trusted friend, or any mental health support you can call upon? It's good that you're safe in bed now, feel free to rant away if you need to!