Not coping

Jane315STARX

I'm not coping with everything that's happened today and literally feel like I'm.going insane.My son has picked up on it so this is how bad the situation now is.I think I will phone social services in the morning because its just too much now.I cannot take anymore

Nightcity

my reply went in the stupid spam bin again, as I don't want to waste time getting to you some support I'll forget the post and ask a brief version

is there one particular issue overall that's made you so upset or is absolutely everything you've posted recently all still happening?

Jane315STARX

The therapy today and my sons access arrangements the school have taken off of him.

Nightcity

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1087611#Comment_1087611

I'll go read your other thread and be back in a tick 🙂

Jane315STARX

Thank you for replying @Nightcity I am in a very negative mindset im afraid so I dont want you wasting your time with further response as im popping off now.Thank you x

Nightcity

ok I think I got the gist, so they basically gave no help or advice you actually required and instead wrongly assumed you had ADHD which is unhelpful and tbh rather ignorant and now you may wait up to a year for something of use.

my advice and feel free to disregard it because I admit from the outset I'm no fan of social workers from bitter experiences so It's rather biased on that part.

would be, try get a welfare worker not social worker, there's a difference in how they treat you and genuinely care, despite the name they can do more than deal with welfare claims and can refer you (often happily) to whatever you need or want. in the short term keep coming on here and if the worst does happen consider Samaritans for a chat.

I am happy to help and advise based on my lived experiences of autism, being bu**ied, just me and my mum how she feels etc etc

Trevor_PIP

Try and stay calm, set a time to call about your son. Stressing out will not help and you are doing your best for your son.

Nightcity

Hi Jane.

I'm trying to recall as much as I can quickly from the other threads.

So The school have been playing games again today?

your son is aware you're extremely stressed.

and all your previous concerns re: assessment report, bullying and your sons withdrawal are all still ongoing?

If I can help in anyway please ask, we're here for you.

rubin16

Just wanted to say, thinking of you and hope you are okay.

Jane315STARX

I dont know what to do.I cant look after my son after yesterday.He has gone to school but I cant speak at all.I think I should place him into care now.This is exactly what I thought would happen

Rachel_Scope

@Jane315STARX I'm sorry you feel so helpless. Take some deep breaths. Could you talk things through on here so we can try and support you? I always find it better to get my thoughts out of my head as it helps me see things more clearly.

Nightcity

I'm so sorry Jane, If there's anything just yell.

Jane315STARX

My sons school have not phoned me i feel like I did years ago and very out of control.im am concerned for my son but trying to keep my sanity.This has been set off by discussing things with the therapist.i have not slept and now feel 100% worse I wish I hadn't gone.now on top of it I have this situation with my son and I know im going to fall apart on the phone.my son looked absolutely terrified going to school this morning because most if last night I couldn't speak or this morning I just feel utterly broken.There is nothing any of you can say to help but it is helping being on here because it us helping focus my mind.Im desperately trying to be who I was two days ago

Strawberry1

Sending loads of empathy and compassion

Your way @Jane315STARX

My heart goes out to u

Now and always

Everyone is wanting things to be better

We all have your back

Sending gentle and supportive hugs if thats ok .

We all care

Jane315STARX

@Catherine21 but did your therapist then say they felt you were not ready and send you a link to re refer to a softer approach in the community?.Something which us totally unsuitable to me as I don't go out ( sorry but I can't believe this therapist)

Jane315STARX

I think she totally miss red my personality.Playing it over in my mind I can see now that although I was obviously vulnerable through showing my obvious emotions.I probably seemed almost arrogant at times.Perhaps my understanding of therapeutic processes and my direct put downs of who could possibly be a college of hers ( the previous psychiatrist who prescribed me olanzapine in a 16 min telephone conversation having never met me).probably didnt help.

Jane315STARX

I also wonder what I would need to show/demonstrate that says im ready for therapy as I know I am and the same traumatic experiences will always be here.They are not going to just dissappear

Rachel_Scope

Do you have the option of counselling over video or phone? I've had both in the past as I struggled to go out too. Maybe the psychiatrist felt it would be too traumatising for you and they didn't want to make you feel worse? When I was younger I was told I needed a certain type of therapy before I could access CBT, I disagreed and went years without any support. I really regret doing that and wish I'd seen someone else who would've helped me. Maybe you could try a different psychiatrist or look into the 'softer approach' therapies and see if you can do them at home.

Jane315STARX

Oh my God I can't actually believe this and thank god I didn't recieve this message yesterday.I have just got a message to say They have sent me back for a telephone appointment in March of next year with that same Dr who prescribed me olanzapine

Strawberry1

I may not have been the best support here @Jane315STARX but i am sending a ton of empathy and compassion your way .

My heart goes out to you .

Sending a ton of peace , harmony and love too .

Hoping for the light at the end of the tunnel to get there quickly for you .

I apologise i havent been the best helper with this .

Sorry but i do wish you all the best

Jane315STARX

@Catherine21 so it seems we are being treated in a simular way.We are left with access to nothing.Yesterday my mind was extremely unstable and I called every resource available.I made a very immature choice surrounding my son which was because of the JCQ taking away his access arrangements.Which could have had an impact on the rest of his life by my taking him out of school,not completing any G.c.s.es etc etc.But this was only because I was literally going out of my mind.Im not blaming the therapist.But I think maybe I should have thought properly before going that I might not be able to cope after and what do I in-between.How do people cope and function?.I'm trying not to think about it because I have my son to look after.But I feel like crying and losing control.Its a very strange and difficult place and scary to be in.My only real option if it goes to the levels if yesterday is to go to A and E.But my son would be utterly broken and would not come back from it.I know his character and personality.Im sorry i know im rambling,im just trying to keep sane