Last Night

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norrms
norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
Last Night............

All i did was put pepper on the wrong meal, thats all !! Elaine doesn't like pepper and politely asked "Why did you do that? not in a bad way or a horrible way, just a question thats all, THIS, is what happened next.......................

BECAUSE I AM STUPID !! THAT`S WHY !! I screamed at the top of my voice !! STUPID STUPID STUPID i kept repeating, I was shaking with temper,(anybody who really knows me will know this is so unlike me) i was ranting and raving over something so simple, just a simple mistake followed by a simple innocent question,

STOP TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD !! I SCREAMED !!
I HATE IT WHEN people treat me like a child!! HATE IT HATE HATE IT I carried on saying!! (I have no idea where that come either ???)

Then i went into complete and utter meltdown, not saying a word, eating my meal in complete silence, which i had now swapped with Elaine after slamming the two plates down on the table so hard its a wonder there was any food left on them to eat.

Shortly after, my Elaine, MY DARLING ANGEL asked me to sit with her on the settee for a much needed cuddle, and believe me we needed it, she had managed the situation perfectly by not responding, but nobody on this earth would have blamed her if she had reacted differently, as nobody should if this ever happens to them.

Please dont blame yourselves if you get mad as carers / caregivers, YOU ARE HUMAN !! I have no words for how much i despise this disease, i have said them all, i know acting like this is not the real me, but i sometimes wonder these days, WHO IS the real me ???

THANK GOODNESS YOU CARERS /CAREGIVERS ARE THERE TO PICK UP THE PIECES !!

Please share if this helps

Norrms , always promising to share everything with you, warts and all. xxxxxxxxxxxx

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  • norrms
    norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
    I have dementia my friend, nine years now, Thank you for your kind words 
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  • norrms
    norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
    Thank you x

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  • norrms
    norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
    Thank you my friend 
  • Chris_Alumni
    Chris_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 684 Empowering
    Thank you for sharing your experiences again @norrms, it must be hard to do , and I'm sure that many carers and people in a similar situation will appreciate them. 

  • norrms
    norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
    Thank you x
  • bam
    bam Online Community Member Posts: 326 Empowering
    edited January 2017
    You can go to the ategory page to find something that interests you
  • bam
    bam Online Community Member Posts: 326 Empowering

    Go to Coffee Lounge

  • norrms
    norrms Online Community Member Posts: 41 Contributor
    ???????? 
    Alex please explain ??
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