hi. ya it is sam. hes not making it easy. the stress isn't good too. lupus isn't made any better by stress. i really need help with esa. i think the best bet is to wait till i am div. hes not giving me much every month once the pension share is sorted, i don't get much pip too. i have got to admit the money side of all this is worrying me. one thing i got recently is a cert for free nhs health care for a year which is a big help.