I left msgs

sam12

I left few msgs no return something about a petition. And social worker causing me to self harm yesterday 

sam12

I miss my bf really hurting me. Am not eating only toast my stomach really hurts to. Had another chat with social worker on the phone he said to call him Monday. That lady at it again last nite she move the radio in middle of her room right on top were am resting then late nite she thumping as soon I lied down she crazy. No way of getting away from her. Am thinking about something very important at moment. Yesterday had alot of private calls I tried to call him of app number he not picking up then some times he does no one speak at all nothing today thou. I think I Been forgot about on here 

Adrian_Scope

Hi @sam12!
We haven't forgotten about you.
Do you mind me asking what the important thing is that you're thinking about?
Have you been working on your handmade artwork at all?

Ami2301

You're definitely not forgotten about @sam12  

sam12

No money to buy anything. Important is my future if I want to live or die basically. I told my social worker when I can afford to pay someone help me pass off goin thru my mind. Am sick of being bullied harmed. Punished for something I haven't done so. He not picked up his phn. Only one time we would not speak. No private calls today. I kant understand why u he called yet maybe still investigating. I told him I think ur punishing me because ur mobile are hacked. He was in his office wen used messenger app under another name he pick up in hear fax machine. I tried what app he not pick up prob saw my number bad mistake. He said he don't want to lose me he will lose me soon. I trying to come up with big decision this person help me before to try and die I back out. They used another method it failed to do the job. I to ring social worker soon 

sam12

I sent some msgs

sam12

Physotic again omg kant think 

sam12

Not got one this mucus making me heave scary kant drain it out 

sam12

I have to punish myself for being in a life I never ask for. I wrong for msgs and trying to call bf when he said not to. He my world I kant go a day without him. Punishment is the way then being trapped in a mind I don't like. I Been punished all my life just for being honest and kind. But so much people want me punished 

Adrian_Scope

You don't need to punish yourself @sam12.
What's the weather like where you are? It's been raining all day here! Have you called your social worker yet?

Ami2301

You deserve to be happy @sam12, everybody deserves to be happy. 

Richard_Scope

@sam12
You have nothing to punish yourself for. 

sam12

Yes morning Time. Not punish yet still time yet. Raining here. Birds singing 

sam12

Am not happy. My world upside down torn apart because of some hacker 

Adrian_Scope

Hi @Sam12,

What did the safeguarding service say to you when you spoke to them? Have you called your social worker at all?

Adrian_Scope

If you're having thoughts about self-harm, you should really speak to Samaritans as they'll be better able to help you. You can get in touch with them on 116 123.
Will you give them a call for me please @sam12?
I know you don't like going there and are concerned about finding your way home again, but it's important if you feel like you're in immediate danger that you go to your local hospital or call 999 right away.

Chloe_Scope

Hi @sam12 you have most certainly not been forgotten
It's been horrible and rainy where I am, but I can't wait for the sun to come back so I can sit and read in my garden. What do you like doing when it's nice and sunny? 

sam12

Got 5hr sleep. She ran in her room she up her radio as I was goin sleep. I had no energy at all. My replacement mobile didn't arrive because having issues with my phn. 

sam12

Had about 9hr sleep second half was in a deep sleep hard to wake up. Tried to sleep again but I start crying I miss bf 

sam12

Moblie currently unavailable what it mean Pls try later this a mean a flat battery cause I sent my bf alot of txts 

sam12

They didn't ring me back Friday. Am really worried about how long this bf mobile takin on investigation. I rang a app number in the day then evening got unknown number anyone can make this he not speaking nor did he block out this number yesterday. I tended to be a client of his but he knows I would txt him I didn't let on was me if he did he block because of investigation. I had no private calls on my normal number this all seems odd. Catchin him thru messenger heard fax machine another issue. Things goin around in my head makin me depressed worried about it. He said he not like that when I asked him u dumping me. Then he give me all details when its finished this must mean the investigation can anyone understand this last bit pls