I left msgs

sam12

I left few msgs no return something about a petition. And social worker causing me to self harm yesterday 

sam12

I miss my bf really hurting me. Am not eating only toast my stomach really hurts to. Had another chat with social worker on the phone he said to call him Monday. That lady at it again last nite she move the radio in middle of her room right on top were am resting then late nite she thumping as soon I lied down she crazy. No way of getting away from her. Am thinking about something very important at moment. Yesterday had alot of private calls I tried to call him of app number he not picking up then some times he does no one speak at all nothing today thou. I think I Been forgot about on here 

Adrian_Scope

Hi @sam12!
We haven't forgotten about you.
Do you mind me asking what the important thing is that you're thinking about?
Have you been working on your handmade artwork at all?

Ami2301

You're definitely not forgotten about @sam12  

sam12

No money to buy anything. Important is my future if I want to live or die basically. I told my social worker when I can afford to pay someone help me pass off goin thru my mind. Am sick of being bullied harmed. Punished for something I haven't done so. He not picked up his phn. Only one time we would not speak. No private calls today. I kant understand why u he called yet maybe still investigating. I told him I think ur punishing me because ur mobile are hacked. He was in his office wen used messenger app under another name he pick up in hear fax machine. I tried what app he not pick up prob saw my number bad mistake. He said he don't want to lose me he will lose me soon. I trying to come up with big decision this person help me before to try and die I back out. They used another method it failed to do the job. I to ring social worker soon 

sam12

I sent some msgs

sam12

Physotic again omg kant think 

sam12

Not got one this mucus making me heave scary kant drain it out 

sam12

I have to punish myself for being in a life I never ask for. I wrong for msgs and trying to call bf when he said not to. He my world I kant go a day without him. Punishment is the way then being trapped in a mind I don't like. I Been punished all my life just for being honest and kind. But so much people want me punished 

Adrian_Scope

You don't need to punish yourself @sam12.
What's the weather like where you are? It's been raining all day here! Have you called your social worker yet?

Ami2301

You deserve to be happy @sam12, everybody deserves to be happy. 

Richard_Scope

@sam12
You have nothing to punish yourself for. 

sam12

Yes morning Time. Not punish yet still time yet. Raining here. Birds singing 

sam12

Am not happy. My world upside down torn apart because of some hacker 

Adrian_Scope

Hi @Sam12,

What did the safeguarding service say to you when you spoke to them? Have you called your social worker at all?

Adrian_Scope

If you're having thoughts about self-harm, you should really speak to Samaritans as they'll be better able to help you. You can get in touch with them on 116 123.
Will you give them a call for me please @sam12?
I know you don't like going there and are concerned about finding your way home again, but it's important if you feel like you're in immediate danger that you go to your local hospital or call 999 right away.

Chloe_Scope

Hi @sam12 you have most certainly not been forgotten
It's been horrible and rainy where I am, but I can't wait for the sun to come back so I can sit and read in my garden. What do you like doing when it's nice and sunny? 

sam12

Got 5hr sleep. She ran in her room she up her radio as I was goin sleep. I had no energy at all. My replacement mobile didn't arrive because having issues with my phn. 

sam12

Had about 9hr sleep second half was in a deep sleep hard to wake up. Tried to sleep again but I start crying I miss bf 

sam12

Moblie currently unavailable what it mean Pls try later this a mean a flat battery cause I sent my bf alot of txts 

sam12

They didn't ring me back Friday. Am really worried about how long this bf mobile takin on investigation. I rang a app number in the day then evening got unknown number anyone can make this he not speaking nor did he block out this number yesterday. I tended to be a client of his but he knows I would txt him I didn't let on was me if he did he block because of investigation. I had no private calls on my normal number this all seems odd. Catchin him thru messenger heard fax machine another issue. Things goin around in my head makin me depressed worried about it. He said he not like that when I asked him u dumping me. Then he give me all details when its finished this must mean the investigation can anyone understand this last bit pls

sam12

I rang up for support got fobbed off 

sam12

Mh neglected me today also Dr's won't treat me this mucus making me choke 

sam12

With mental health helpline. Not the hospital. She on my side my not dumped me I told her what happened she remember me each time I ring. If he was hacked I was to it true. Am certainly being Brain washed by hospital mental health they say things and deni it to cover the skin. My bf knows I Been neglected in past. There a woman I was unsure about but I grown to like talking to her at the hospital. That day I asked bf u dumping me he said not like that wen he does call me I am telling him everything that happened. Today I did self harm but could not do more the blade really to sharp it would of given me hospital trip not be buying them again I think not good. That wicked old woman again. Heard her running in her lougne on radio she dam bully. I wonder if I sleep tonite. Oh Wentworth prison on tonight. Still corrie to watch to. Today only eaten toast and few scraps of cheese. Hope my bf is safe and well he diabetic. The investigation kant last much longer. Got nite of hell now. Omg. Social worker wants me to have support worker here this wk another added one   

sam12

Finally get antibiotics for this infection I had for a while could of been sorted ages ago I had to to fight this today one Dr denied me home visit. I was advised to file a complaint. So a lady clinician come one she knows me from old surgery I had literally fight to get medication it really makin my mind u functioning it would if I infection I feel am deteriorating not able to eat either. It causing me to harm more. Now I tried to sleep was close to sleep. Then that old witch thumping me. Now I not sleep. She pray on me bully. How am I supposed to heal to get better 

sam12

of a police officer in America. This explains why u don't talk to me they need to catch the hacker or less hacker gets the better. I know he remove my number from investigation. But still happens on app. This why he not charged his phn our privacy mobile. He will ring am sure. People'brain washin me saying he dump me. On 13th March I ask him r u dumping me he said not like that and wen investigation is finished he give me details for some reason he could not call 16th something happens. Obviously he protecting me just like he warned me on a call we had before the 13th

sam12

I often ring mh helpline at nite been speaking to a scotch lady very nice lady spoke on Wednesday and just spoke again i was surprised she said she loving the helpline. Cause this other lady I normally talk to has gone. Probably speak to her this wed to very nice lady she very supportive to definitely caring to. Anyone need support ring mh line not the hospital one

sam12

Am so desperately want to talk to my bf now coming 14wks wed. Still trying to get more information from police people online community quora. This got be worst experience goin through we used to chatting every day. Hope they finish the investigation soon 

sam12

I gave them another chance social worker n support worker it's just my nature am to soft of a person 

Adrian_Scope

Very glad you gave your social/support workers another chance @sam12. While you might think you're being too soft, I think it's really important for you to stay engaged with these people, so you don't fall through the cracks.
Have you caught up on any TV lately? Been watching anything today?

sam12

Wentworth prison. Soaps.. This lady doin my head in she never le a me rest at all. Today she loud voice. 6.30morn and now her radio usually asleep. Spoke to social worker. Still no bf call. Must b serious if going all this time. Did u see the pic of America police all true because I knew before they told me. This woman totally crazy. Did harm at wkend am OK. Been talking to crisis team lost yesterday woman same name. Got sleep last nite about 5hrs. On antibiotics to. No idea if I need more how I get to Dr I don't like these Dr's or I don't have one problem 

sam12

I sent msg I don't think gone thru. Even sent pics they look different to wat I sent I hope my mobile isnt still hacked 

Adrian_Scope

Hi @sam12, when are you next speaking to MH or your social worker? Glad you're getting some consistency in terms of the people you're talking to.

sam12

Yes. Feeling low because I miss my bf really hurts because of a hacker I miss our chats