So I'm just looking for a bit of advice really, I've read a lot of these forums in the last six months but thought maybe explaining my situation could find me some more solid advice.
I applied for PIP regarding the above conditions, I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and a rare deformity called Madelungs Deformity where my lower arm bones didn't form correctly and I have pain in my wrists often. At the beginning of my claim I had a pending ADHD diagnoses (over a year waiting still...) and just after recieving my first decline with 0 points I had a letter which confirms they are now looking at the possibility of ASD as well. This was included in my mandatory reconsideration which again was 0 points.
I thought perhaps in the first claim as I didn't know the point system that was my downfall so for my MR I ended up writing an 8000 word letter to cover EVERYTHING.
I made sure to spell it out so simply with everything "I can not cook without an aid, my wrist support, due to overhwhelming pain." etc. Why I cannot do it, what help I need, what happens without help.. Still 0 points on everything and I'm so confused as to why?
In terms of evidence, it was overwhelming. I had hospital notes from my overdose years ago, multiple assessments which show I've struggled with what I've reported for over ten years, my work confirming the adjustments they made, my mum confirming she has to drive me due to anxiety, confirming she literally works with my due to my anxiety and depressive moods. A letter from my counsellor, letter confirming extra time at university for exams due to my struggles with concentration, letter with advice from pysiotherapist and even an occupational therapist confirming I cannot do certain tasks at work such as preparing food due to my wrists.
It was noted a lot by my "assessor" that because I work a 0 hour contract and take up some hours at work that proves I have motivation which completely cancels out any sections claimed under mental health. I have to work a 0 hour contract as I cannot work a contract due to my mood swings and anxiety. If I work too often it will lead to me self harming and feeling suicidal etc because of the stress. It's dramatic I know but it's just how the BPD affects me, very intense reactions
She also noted how I don't take medication. I use to have anti-depressants which I felt made me worse so I came off them for a while. I considered going back on them however in the last two years pursuing the ADHD route I considered if a lot of my problems came from that rather than BPD which could be misdiagnosed so I choose to stay off pills until it's confirmed. In terms of painkillers my brother is an addict to prescription drugs so I will do everything I can (use wrist supports, psysiotherapy, heat/cold treatment and over the counter medication) to manage my wrist pain. I do not like medication. I explained all of this on the MR letter.
I could go on forever about the things in her assessment but I'm sure you guys know the way it works now. But one big thing that got me was looking through a guide on information the assessor should get it states they need to take into consideration readjustments at work etc. I asked her if I should take about my struggles at work and what they put in place and she told me "no, it's based on the next sections not how you do at work." I included the adjustments in my MR after knowing this but it doesn't help her report just stating a bunch of stuff that isn't true.
My biggest struggle now is deciding what to do and if I have a chance. Hopefully the appeal process would take so long that the ADHD or ASD is confirmed and that could sway it. In my MR letter I asked to be called by the decision maker mainly so I could explain the medication, the updates in the ASD/ADHD and so fourth. They did not call me. I'm worried that they simply did not read my whole letter. They didn't add ASD. Didn't read all the extra evidence I provided.
Should I call them first and challenge this? Ask why I wasn't called? Kinda passive aggressively ask if they recieved everything as it wasn't addressed?
Or should I just go straight to the appeal? Do I need to start everything again from the start? Attach all the evidence again? How much do I write?
I'm so scared if I write too much it won't be read, same as my MR.. I just wondered if anyone had been through a similar situation and where I should go from here.
Thank you in advance if anyone responds, it means a lot.