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I write to complain of the inhuman way ive been treated by PIP assment. I am mentally unstable and this has caused my health to get to the point of wanting to end it all. Over dramatic you say but it’s not. I feel ive been treated like a liar when I have been honest? How can you break someone so much that they feel suicide is the only way out? I am not the only victim of such a demining processes and I won’t be the last. I write to you as I feel this is needed to be said, so stay with me and read to the end. Maybe you care maybe you won’t. Maybe you will just write me off as another number to be ignored. So let me tell you about myself
I am now 25 years old. I live in a room 15 x 15. I don’t get out but to have painful treatments or to see doctors who say pills will help (they barely keep the pain at bay). I am a prisoner of my disability. I live in a family that hates me because I am disabled. Every day I wake up and wonder why I must wake up. Where did the young girl whose dreams were so big go? They disappeared like morning mist never to be seen again. Nightmares replace them. My life is a nightmare I pray I wake up from everyday. I reply on others to get me up force me to eat and function enough to take my meds, enough to use the loo, the pain causing tears to fall silently from my eyes every second. Washing is not going to happen most days, to painful and the point?. Everyday is the same they run into the next: no joy just pain.
I gathered my courage with help and applied for ESA after breaking down in the jobseekers office. I get it, there is no joy just relief. PIP next I got that in 2017. I think maybe I can cope. Maybe something good will happen. Fast forward to 2018 my condition gets worse I start to fall and am finally diagnosed with Fibomagila . I already have POS. This caused the death of my baby due to miscarriage in 2017. That wasn’t planned or even hoped for. I mean how I could look after a baby when I can’t look after myself. My heart still breaks, oh how I wish I had let sepsis take me then I would be free from pain.
2018 I went for my PIP face to face yet again. Wheelchair at the ready. Help every step. Meeting a polish nurse who was very rushed not seeming to care, just wanting to get it over with. The questions so quickly asked I had no chance to breath, trying to cope as best I could.
I let my partner do the talking mostly as I was shaking so much. I was asked to stand I explained I could not do this. Went through basic movements, I could not lift my left leg or my left arm, I could not touch my toes. I explained about what my conditions were and how they cost my joy in living. My partner backed up what help I needed and explained how I reply on everyone around me and how much I suffer. He had to give her letters as my hands were shaking so much and I could not look her in the eye. I was trying to breathe to cope with the pain. 15 minutes later she rushed us out the door. I arrived in a taxi and left in a taxi I moved from the chair to the taix with help and crutches a mere 2 inches. This caused me a lot of pain I was honest and hoped she would be in her report.
Fast forward to November asked for copy and got it. The reading of the lies told by the nurse was shocking to say the least. Saying I was more then caple of looking after myself and walking miles. It was basically saying what I told DWP was all lies and noting was written about my depression or suicide attempts. Lies after lies, sending me into a mental breakdown, now I sit and cry praying my illnesses will take my life. How can one live on 500 a month is beyond me. My last shred of joy snatched from me by the lies of just one person.
I’m not sure if this is what you aspect from a complaint letter or if I should just explain of my exorince but here ive written from my heart and how I feel and how I am sure most feel. I guess you could use this against me but words are my only way to express myself now. This little letter is now causing me pain so here I will stop and hope you’ve read this. This is not just my voice but many others that I read about that have suffered from this dehumanising process.
Yours from a broken spirited young lady
[full name removed by moderator]
affii1993 said: @Yadnad all of them
You are a member of our community and we appreciate you. If you are having thoughts of suicide, it is important that you discuss them with someone who is qualified to help. Please call the Samaritans on 116 123 (free) or email them at jo@samaritans.org.
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