You are a member of our community and we appreciate you. I am sorry to hear you are going through such a tough time.
If you are having thoughts of suicide, it is important that you discuss them with someone who is qualified to help. Please call the Samaritans on 116 123 (free) or email them at [email protected]
You might also benefit from reading MIND’s information on how you can help yourself: http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/suicidal-feelings/how-can-i-help-myself/
If you feel that you may be an immediate danger to yourself, please call 999 or go to your local hospital right away.