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Feeling so low after trying to work again and falling Ill.
I have Autism, Schizophrenia and very bad crohn's disease. I have suffered most of my life and each day is a daily battle. Anyway I tried to find myself a job a few weeks ago and was successful, I managed to work a week and 1 day before I started to feel unwell and was off sick, I was taken to hospital a few days ago and it turns out my crohn's is flaring again. I'm always unwell and feels like a never ending battle as one of the contributing factors is stress, and due to my Autism and schizophrenia I get stress and anxiety alot which sets off my crohn's. It just seems to be a never ending pattern of my crohns flaring which leads to hospital then becuase of my low mood my schizophrenia sets off again which again eventually will set off my crohn's again.
I just feel like I am trapped with nothing but hospital visits and being unwell, I want to live normally, have a job, a career and gain some independance but I can't, each time I try I fail and fall really ill. Just thinking about my future prospects is really depressing and I don't want to live a life of constantly being in hospital, I just feel a prisoner of my own body and would do anything to escape this nightmare of an existance.
So now I have to sign on the sick again, I want to be able to work but I don't think I can. I don't want to give up but I have no choice as each time I have tried to push myself I have been really poorly. I just don't know what to do anymore and am at breaking point and feel like a failure in life, it just looks like my future is just full of more pain and suffering till the day I die.