Im feeling really lonely

Agnia

hi im completely on my own and im feeling really lonely im not coping with this situation 

Agnia

Thank you @Beaver79
i was outside 7 months ago im not able to go outside now 
im really feeling unwell here 
im sorry i don’t have a neighbour i could talk to 
i was calling Samaritans 3 times yesterday and 4 times on Thursday 
i became ill 2 years ago and never recovered 
my family doesn’t want to see me 
they were blocking me because i was begging for help and they said that i did cross boundaries 

Agnia

i remember my grandmother took my uncle ( her son) to her flat when he was adult and was ill 
she didn’t leave him alone 
i was called toxic person egoistic but i only was begging not to leave me alone especially under circumstances i was facing 
im sorry if my English is not grammatically correct 
i remember my other grandmother when she did care for her mother and didn’t send her to care home 

Agnia

@Beaver79 Thank you 
They said that must very hard my situation, they gave me age UK telephone number but im not at this age group to get accommodation 
during the conversation i was talking about my feelings 
so many things happened at the same time in my life and i didn’t cope with them 
im sorry im not a member of religious group 

Agnia

Thank you @Beaver79
the lady from social services called and said that my council doesn’t provide carer and cleaning services 
i need to give a prove how many benefits i receive and they will tell me how much do i have to pay to have this service 
i will die in care home 
i miss my family 
my psyche doesn’t cope with this situation 

Agnia

my family said that it’s my choice the way i think 
that im toxic narcissistic egotistical energetic wampire and that i never had a brain 

Lou67

@Agnia
Good morning I’m sorry things still haven’t got any better for you. 

@Beaver79 has given a good few suggestions I hope someone can help. 

What about The Salvation Army if you google it there will be one that’s hopefully near that  might come and visit you. 

Or the Social services should be able to help you.

Take care ❤️

Agnia

Thank you @Lou67

Lou67

@Agnia

Please reach out to the people that’s been suggested. 

I hate to think of you alone and sad.
If I stayed near I would visit you please just remember there are a lot of people on here that care about you. 

Look after yourself, and I pray things get better for you.

❤️

Agnia

Thank you @Lou67

Jimm_Alumni

Hi @Agnia, sorry to hear how things are going Keep an eye out for an email from us!

It's not something I would normally suggest as I am not religious at all, but I noticed my towns church was doing a Christmas get together for people who are spending Christmas alone. You don't have to be religious or of the church.

 Maybe there's something like that near you? I've heard of village/town halls doing such things too. I would prefer something secular myself if I was alone, but I know it's usually a thing churches do.

Agnia

Thank you @Jimm_Scope
im not able to go outside 

Jimm_Alumni

I'm sorry I suggested that @Agnia, I understand the agoraphobia. I did have to deal with it for a few years. 

I don't know if you have looked at it but Hub of hope is a database that shows both services local to you and nationally that you could reach out to.

WhatThe

Hi Agnia, 

I'm sad to think of you suffering, really I am   
I worried when you didn't post here for awhile.

There is no limit for support on this forum. Christmas especially can be such a difficult time to bear but please remember you are not alone with your Scope family nearby xxx 
 

Agnia

Thank you very much  @WhatThe 
Thank you @Jimm_Scope

Agnia

im sorry how can i cope here completely lonely 

Lou67

@Agnia
It’s a so sad you are lonely and i mean this in the nicest way.
 If you don’t reach out to some of the organisations that’s been suggested things will stay the same. 

Im not sure if Scope can reach out to anyone on your behalf, im sure they will if they are able to.

I hope you can receive some help,  I will definitely be checking in with you over the next few day.

Take care ❤️

Agnia

Thank you very much  @Lou67
i was a burden for everyone 
my psyche didn’t cope with everything that happened in my life too many things at the same time and i became really sick 

Agnia

my grandmother didn’t leave her son alone when he was unwell and she agreed that he could stay with her at her flat and she was quite older  lady  when she was helping him 
im really domestic person 
im not able to work and it’s really hard for me 
i was thinking that im loosing my mind because so many thoughts were coming to my mind 

Lou67

@Agnia
You are not a burden you have had things happen in your life that’s been a lot to cope with.

When people have wronged me in my past I was left feeling worthless it took me a good few years to start believing I was worth so much more. 

Sometimes those feelings creep back in. But i trying push them out off my mind.

I hope you can start believing in yourself and realising your worth so much more.❤️

Agnia

Thank you @Lou67
You are a very warm, kind lady