Poem that I wrote while going through the hardest time of my life

Robin0480
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Wrote this in 2006 after going to a poetry workshop. Not gonna lie I cried alot writing this but after I did I felt a lift weighted off me sometimes it's good to write your feelings down. Lighten that load we're not ment to keep our feelings bottled up 🙂 sometimes it's better to write them down as you can tell all the people you want but their not you. They can sympathise with what your going though but unless they've lived it they haven't got a clue.

Step out of the darkness and into the light but you wouldn't know darkness unless there was light for if it was always dark all you'd know is depression, degradation and despair and if there was only light you wouldn't know how lucky you were.

He always put me down so much called me stupid, idiot, fat.

There'll be no one now to cook him tea, to give him hugs, to love him as much as me.

Now I've put him in the past and my future is bright at last. For those goals he said I was to stupid to achieve I'm not stupid and I will succeed.

And even though I'll never forget, he's lost more than he'll ever know so tell me who's the stupid one now !!!

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  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 10,670 Championing

    Brilliant @Robin0480 It does help to write things down even if it makes us cry. Take care.

  • Robin0480
    Robin0480 Online Community Member Posts: 59 Connected

    Thank you @bluebell21 just thought if it helps even one person who was in a similar situation and I'm know I'm the only one it's worth getting this out there 🙂

  • Robin0480
    Robin0480 Online Community Member Posts: 59 Connected

    Not the only one omg 🤣

  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 1,946 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Brilliant poem @Robin0480 thank you so much for sharing this!

  • Robin0480
    Robin0480 Online Community Member Posts: 59 Connected

    Your welcome holly_Scope millions of people are currently in a similar situation that I was in and I just hope my words will inspire them to reach their goals.

    We've all got a little poet inside ourselves.

    I was half way to reaching mine I went to college at 27 years old passed my progression course then fell pregnant. I was accepted onto the access to nursing course, but as all plans there's always a little hickup in the works I wouldn't change my son for the world, I didn't have much time as it was working part time then also attending college full time and towards the end of the progression course the amount of work you'd be having to carry around the work load with access to nursing I was told would be at least treble the amount.

    So I weighed the pros and cons and with having an almost geractic pregnancy at 28/29 years old already not not spending much time with my daughter decided I would delay as not worth the risk something happening and the amount of pain I was in while I was pregnant think I made the right choice.

    Plus I proved I wasn't stupid as I wouldn't have been accepted onto the access course If I was.

    Anyway if anyone is or was in a similar situation I hope you reach your goals or have already reached them.

    My goal was to become a midwife though I was half way there. Would have gone down the nursing route then worked my way up from within as its extremely difficult to become a midwife from over 500 applicants it's lucky if they take 10 on and that was in 2008 god only knows how many it is today.

    I hope that after I've sorted my health issues out I'll be able to get back to achieving this goal.

    Delayed again though as I'm now my mother's carer have been for the last 5 years, though with my health is at the moment that will also be on the back burner until I'm fit enough.

    Wouldn't change this either as if you saw my mum when she first came down and see her now you'd notice a difference.

    Anyway enough about me how's your day been?

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