Not sleeping at all 🥲

tracies1996 · October 5

I have many mental health problems, and alcohol addiction as have ptsd from sexual assault. I applied for pip two months ago and waiting for outcome and it’s just making me spiral even more . I’m surviving on about an hour , 2 at most sleep and so run down . My IBS , is bad , I’m having panic attacks and wish I’d not even applied for pip now even though benefit advisor told me to , but my brain doesn’t function well with change or stress I just get manic and make myself unwell . I struggle to get through every day life as it is so I hate that I have this added stress . The horror stories I read about this bloody pip just makes me feel ill. Feel like I’m losing my mind . I try so hard to get by each day but it’s difficult. Hugs to anyone else who’s struggling right now also . 🥰

durhamjaide2001 · October 5

sorry to hear that you aren't sleeping at all what helps me when I'm not sleeping is listening to meditation on YouTube and you can get pillow spray and rescue drops that goes on the tip of your tongue I hope these suggestions help

tracies1996 · October 5

Thank you @durhamjaide2001 il give these a try as feel like I’m losing my mind it’s awful. What’s best rescue drops so I can have a look ? And pillow spray ? I do listen to a thunderstorm app at times but that’s stopped working for me as I’m so highly strung . My mind is constantly 100 miles an hour. X

Albus_Scope · October 5

Sorry this is effecting you so much @tracies1996 I remember how stressed I was when I first applied for PIP, when I was dealing with extreme anxiety and freshly diagnoses PTSD, it wasn't fun. My best piece of advice is try to keep busy and try not to think about your PIP application. Easier said than done I know, but it's worth remembering you only ever hear about the bad experiences people have, never the good ones. Many people are claiming PIP with no bad experiences.

Have you spoken to your GP about how it's been making you feel?

I'll pop you an email in a bit, so please be on the look out for it. ☺️

MW123 · October 5

The cruelty of PIP is in the wait. Once you’ve applied, you are stuck in limbo, exhausted, anxious, and destabilised. It does not just test eligibility. It tests how long you can endure uncertainty.

I cannot offer solutions, because the process itself is the problem. The horror stories are real and well documented, and they dominate the conversation for a reason. But many people do get awarded. It is just that when the outcome is fair, most are too relieved or too worn down to talk about it.

I hope you do not have to wait much longer for your claim to be approved.

tracies1996 · October 5

Thank you @Albus_Scope and @MW123 your right it’s exhausting. I could have applied a few years ago now but I refused to because I found it hard enough when fought for esa and I did appeal that but was soul destroying and draining .Struggling with my mental health etc is bad enough. I only applied as my benefit advisor lady talked me round and said look you really should it will help you massively. I wish I was a person who didn’t overthink or spiral or have the worst panic attacks it’s like my brain is wired totally wrong at times . I would love to be that person who never worries or suffers ptsd or flashbacks . I guess I should be proud I did apply though and I’m always trying small steps to accept help again from counselling etc. ( I hate appointments of any kind or talking on phone lol ) but I know I must try and push myself at times . Thank you for replying to me and sorry for your hard times too. X this forum btw is full of lovely kind people I really appreciate it x

Leelitsa · October 5

@tracies1996

Hi there. I can really relate to you and some of your conditions and other conditions I have doesn’t help and makes it more difficult and impacts severely on our conditions of the fear we face due the uncertainty for being in the hands of dwp. We have added stress or losing our benefits. We think we’re the only ones but we are not alone trying to survive just from being unwell never mind the uncertainty of our own circumstances and situation we’re in. I sent off my pip review form 4 months ago it’s not even been looked at yet. It’s stressful as the first time I did it!

I sometimes think is it worth the hassle, the upheaval, anxiety and fear and then I think I don’t have any choice. I am so tired of fighting the world but I have no choice it would certainly affect my life if I lost pip due to my circumstances and situation in my time of need. My circumstances are very bad at the moment and I can’t see a way out and it makes me think of bad things all the time, I think anyone reading this would know what I meant. So sorry I don’t mean to be feeling so low but I have no one who understands to reach out to.

I wish everyone all the best luck and God bless.❤️🙏

tracies1996 · October 5

So sorry you are so low too lovely @Leelitsa . You’re right we rely on what we get but it’s sooo much stress which as anyone knows stress and anxiety can bring on so much more it’s not as black and white as the government might think . Things like this make me spiral more and I self destruct which isn’t good at all . All I want in life is to find some peace and try manage day to day but it’s never really possible. We don’t ask to be this way , unfortunately things in life happen to us and mess us up. In my life I’ve just came across very bad ppl from a young age which carried on through life . So if I get one day out of the month where I feel ok I’m thankful as a lot of my days ain’t so . I hope you get some good days hun and I hope you hear good news about your pip soon .Fingers crossed 🤞 . 🥰

Leelitsa · October 5

Hi @tracies1996,

Thank you for replying back to me, I really appreciate it. You have helped me feel valued just by replying and grateful.🙏

Goodness 🙆🏻‍♀️ I also have suffered in the hands of some bad ppl for many years of my life and it really badly messed me up too. Also one of my mental health conditions is ptsd due nearly passing away. Thank goodness am here still.🙏

We have come a long way and like others on here too.

Wish you many good days and finding that precious peace and happiness. Also wish you very best outcome on your pip claim.🤞

All the best my lovely.❤️

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