Hi, my name is david232324!

Hi @david232324 and welcome to the community. I am going to say what I say to most newcomers here: you have found a safe place here and you are among friends. Whatever your experiences are, you will find people here who have experienced something similar and who are genuinely sympathetic. Don't be shy of telling us about yourself or of asking any questions you may have. They will help us get to know you, and the better we get to know you the more easily we may be of some use to you.
Warmest best wishes to you
Richard