How is your day going?

So not been on for a while so much been happening, dad has dementia and parkinsons ended up in hospital for a couple of weeks and my PTSD stopped me visiting him (I am terrified of hospitals) then he came home and husband had a heart attack, did manage to call ambulance and then everything went fuzzy and was not real, went in ambulance with blue flashing lights and sirens but felt detatched, got to hospital and couldn't go in had flashback then panic attack. Got home nurse rang and another panic attack left me vomiting, she rang daughter who came to make sure I was okay. Kept blinds closed for a week and didn't look after myself but husband came home yesterday and is recovering. It's so good to have him home but feel very guilty at not visiting and having a meltdown, was totally exhausting. I ate properly yesterday and the blinds are open again.

Hi very sorry to hear all you are going through.

I hope things improve for you soon.

Afternoon all.

It's cold. Sun the rain then hail

Been a good day, mom brought her car over for an oil change and did that. Her, I do not charge her anything due to she raised my 3 older brothers and I good and this is my way of paying it back to her for what she has done to us. Looks like a trip to Germany in June, got in touch with the 3 nurses that took good care of me while I was recovering after my amputation was done at the military hospital I was at in 2005. They remembered me as the Marine they took care of checking on me. They were my age, 25 and 26 years old at the time and want to reunite with me.