Hello everybody, thank you for taking the time to read my post. I am absolutely disheartened.. I know the time it takes to do something doesn't mean automatic paper assessment but i spent weeks over months in mental agony filling out my PIP2 form whenever i could, giving as much information about myself as i could. They know how far i can walk, my critically low mental state, my non-existant energy. I still know i didn't mention everything but for anyone with a sense of understanding and those who may even attempt to see PIP Applicants as people, i'm obviously not suitable for the face-to-face assessment i've just been booked in for.
I honestly feel so defenseless about these things because i am applying to PIP because of how debilitating my symptoms are, both physical and mental. They're literally asking me to come down to an assessment centre when i said i can't bare people so much that i'll change my route to avoid them, or how i can't even get off the street without being utterly exhausted, and thats in winter, where fatigue made worse by heat isn't a factor. Just to make it worse, despite you only leaving the house (and still barely) at night to avoid people, we'll book you in for midday, i'm outraged that i'm supposed to plead my case with an organisation that clearly hasn't even tried to read what i've sent them or made any attempt at accomodation, why do they have home-visits if not for people like me?
Then, if i can't attend, to RING them? You're dealing with people who have issues debilitating enough that it affects their normal, functional life which often includes physchological problems and the only route i have to dispute this is to ring you? Also take no notice that i struggle so much with talking on the phone that my entire application so far has been through the post, where i have rather waited months for them to recieve a letter than call.
I'm sorry this is rant-y, but i did also make this post to try and be productive. What options do i feasibly have here? Chance of alternate appointment? Consequence? Feasibility? Sure, if i really must ring, life or death, i can put on a brave-face, spend days preparing just like anyone could if needed. Pretend like i'm fine though how unfine i am i can't even put into words, but isn't the entire point of this process not to pretend like everything is golden? It's like you wanted me to tell you i have severe social problems just so that you can arrange for me to be a public speaker at an event, and in that public speech, i should tell you about my issues. Perhaps this isn't a big deal for somebody else, but when you consider that my entire application paints a picture of how impossible a face-to-face appointment for me is, both physologically and physically, there is a complete disconnect in recieving an appointment for one. I would go as far as to say that it's ethically questionable to put me under these conditions especially given the institution has alternatives
