Suicidal thoughts are high again.

one
one Online Community Member Posts: 3 Listener
in Mental health and wellbeing
My thoughts are dark first thing in the morning and last thing at night. Paranoid feelings about everyone. Anxiety at a high . Feeling pressure from all around. I should let everybody win and just end it.

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  • Lou67
    Lou67 Online Community Member Posts: 8,715 Championing

    @one
    Good morning I’m so sorry you are having these thoughts, i hope they pass soon, if they don’t I hope you will call out to someone for help. Look after yourself and please keep yourself safe.
  • Adrian_Scope
    Adrian_Scope Posts: 11,754 Online Community Programme Lead
    Hello @one. I want to wish you a very warm welcome to our online community. I'm sorry to read how you're struggling with these overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I appreciate you're feeling a lot of pressure right now, but you've shown incredible courage just sharing how you're feeling at the moment.

    Can I ask what sort of support you're receiving at the moment? Do you have access to a mental health team? Does your GP know what you're going through?

    When you're feeling these sorts of feelings it's really important to talk to someone who's able to help you with them. You're more than welcome to talk about those here, but if you'd prefer to speak to someone one-to-one, you can always contact Samaritans on 116 123 or text SHOUT to 85258. In the meantime, I'm going to send you an email to check in with you, so please keep a look out for that.

    If you do at any point feel like you might be in immediate danger, please call 999. 
  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 3,983 Championing

    Hello one precious human. Stay on this site because writing about such distress will help to make your feelings more manageable. Asking for help is the first step and it is other people who will get you through this. Remember that you have likely recovered from this in the past and can do so again. Suicidal ideations are common in certain conditions and are not your fault. Your GP needs to know you are not coping right now in order to help you. MIND offers personalised text support and advice if you don't feel like making phone calls. Getting outdoors may sound simple but 'green therapy' is vital for good mental health. Take it one day at a time. 
  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 3,983 Championing

    One step at a time..

    I'm still thinking about you because I've been in that dark place many times.
    The change that needs to happen is damned hard but you can do it, one step at a time. Keep asking for help like you did today.

    Looking out of my window at the clouds, birds, trees keeps me going when I'm in a state of paralysis. Then I have to make myself do something I don't want to do.  

    Shout 85258 sounds like excellent text support. 

    Come back tomorrow

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