Hello everyone,
This is the first time i have ever posted on a forum and i am looking for some advice, i suffer with Autism, ADHD and i also have a learning disability. I think one of my most difficulties of having my conditions is having to explain them because even at the age of 31 i am still learning new things about myself yet alone explain everything in full detail to someone during an assessment especially when its an invisble illness you talk about . In 2019 i had a assessment and was put into the group to prepare for work. In all honesty i was pretty much left alone not alot was happening and i got to stage that although my anxiety and depression was through the roof but think the source of my depression i did want to make something of myself, have a purpose and a better quality of life i promised myself i would get a job before i turn 30 so i pushed and i pushed, i asked the work coach for every course that was going. After 4 courses over the period of 3 months with the final completion to a job interview. Considering it was my first interview i was lucky to have been offered 3 roles and finally i could start earning money and be proud and feel worthy, it was a factory type full time and as time on i struggled and i made to a year until i couldnt do no more, (i.e sensory issues with lights/noise) i then went from that job and into hospility working in a kitchen (probably not the best environment for my conditions) but i stuck at that for year until towards christmas this year i was at breaking point. I have learnt that i cannot seem to hold down a full time job because my health just seems to deteriorate, sleep, eating and sometimes even hygiene (teeth etc) i just forget. I know 100% in these 2 years i have learnt alot and athough i am angry with myself for quitting towards end but im proud i made it this far but same time regret chucking myself straight into it because i am fully burnt out, constantly sleeping,back on anti depressants, sick note in for 3 months i have a new doctor as moved since then and she is very understanding, but feel from the very start i should had been put in at least one of the groups all those years ago, since coming out of employment i am now on new medication for my autism which is medical cannabis from a private clinics because sometimes when change of routine would happen at work i could have quite bad meltdowns and can have random bursts of anger, since cannabis, it helps alot aswell as for insomnia and appetite. A work colleague of mine who is always a superviser to where i worked is going to write me up a statement as he was one to witness my meltdowns in the kitchen, but can anyone advice me on anything else i could use for evidence? I have my full medical file which does state my conditons, or would it be better to ask my doctor to write up how my conditions affect me? Im really worrying i have really put my foot in it because i have worked for those 2 years in my life they will now just think im fine, i think i wish i knew what i know now and think they didnt get much evidence from the doctor and thats where i went wrong last time. i do want to work, i really do because i saw how much growth in me and the soical element of things but there has to be a balance of quality. i really like gardening, for example it seems all the jobs that i do love and would fit for me would never be enough for me to live on. Im sorry for my long story. I would be so greatful for any advice on anything. i always get scared about speaking out cause feel people going to think im just lying
