Desperate, can someone please help? LCW problems.
HI,
I am posting hoping that someone can please help me and give me advice on the best thing to do. I suffer from severe anxiety for which I am prescribed sertraline and lorazepam and have been on these meds for over two years. I was living off savings until they ran out so I applied for contribution based ESA.
I had my assessment six weeks ago and have been found LCW and not been placed in the support group. My issue is that I got the ESA85 report back and it is complete fiction. I actually recorded the assessment which was by telephone, and it lasted just 13 minutes. I cannot cope with any change nor can I engage at all with anyone, either face to face or in any other way. I live alone and I never go out unless I absolutely have to and then I have to medicate with Lorazepam, which is not ideal as I have been instructed by my doctor to try to use it sparingly as it's been linked to cancer and dementia and is highly addictive. I also get very bad rebound anxiety which incapacitates me even more. I put most of this in the descriptors for the original application along with other details and the assessor didn't ask any questions about these things at all. Instead he has invented a lot of nonsense that he never asked and which I never uttered.
There are 29 statements attributed to me which are completely false, don't make sense and go against what I put in my descriptors. He says I have one panic attack a week which lasts for fifteen minutes and then I am ok. I told him that it's two or three a week at best and if stressed every day, and in my descriptors I write that it puts me in bed afterwards. He says I phone people to catch up with things every day, watch TV for hours, can cope with change if given notice with no problem and go out once a week with my adult son shopping etc. All these things are complete lies that he has fabricated.
I wrote in my descriptors that I cannot watch anything unless I know what it is because it sets off my terrors and so I rarely watch anything at all unless pre-recorded and vetted. I said I don't socialise in any way, shape or form, don't speak on the phone and never even answer the door. My son is not an adult, he is seventeen and lives with his mother and he goes shopping for me etc. The assessor say my adult son and I regularly meet up to chat and catch up and I can cope with changes in our arrangement if given adequate notice with no problem. Again, complete fiction.
He writes that there is no substantial risk if found fit for LCW, even though I can only ever engage with anyone or anything if I heavily medicate myself with Lorazepam, which is surely a risk factor given the aforementioned side effects and the fact that it incapacitates me to the extent that I couldn't drive and am unsteady on my legs. A normal day sees me never venturing out or seeing or speaking to anyone and I might take half a Lorazepam if I get a mild attack or to help me sleep if I get wound up and sleep deprived over a few days. If I have to do anything out of the ordinary I need to take more than that and surely that's not a safe sustainable thing for the DWP to force me to do. I told him I was not suicidal on the Lorazepam and then he cut me off and asked me something else. I was going to go on to say that without it I am and suffer terrible thoughts etc, but allowed him to interrupt me because I assumed we would be coming back to that and I'd brought it up in the wrong part of his assessment process. I did say that without the Lorazepam I would have thrown myself off of a cliff back in 2022. I also wrote in the descriptors that I am seeing a clinical psychologist because of suicidal thoughts due to shame etc.
I can prove absolutely that this report is false and provide a transcript of the call or indeed an mp3 of the call itself, if needed I didn't tell the assessor I was recording it, but made the tape because my memory is terrible when I take Lorazepam which I had to take it for the assessment, of course.
I am doing a Mandatory Consideration. How on earth do I sum all this up in a way that won't be a wall of text which might not get read or fully appreciated. Do I send them the tape or do just I say that I have it and the report is completely wrong, and I will be sending it and a transcript to any tribunal that I might need to attend.
I don't want to be too heavy handed and call the assessor a liar, though he clearly is.
My head is pulsing as I am typing this. I can't stand listening to myself on the tape and I can't stand having to think about all of this again, but I have to. I feel stressed beyond belief and also ashamed as I have to spell out how pathetic I am when I assumed the process was over. On the tape I am surprised when he says he has all he needs, I ask if he's sure and say I thought he'd be asking me lots more details. I never even started to express myself properly as I assumed I'd be on the phone for an hour and all these questions were to come.
Sorry for typing so much. I only have two and a half weeks to sort this out as the decision letter only just arrived, but is dated ten days ago. Please can somebody give me some advice.
Many thanks,
Kerris