Bonjour!

Perseus93

Hi everyone,

My names Josh, nice to meet you all.

It’s really comforting reading about everyone’s experiences to know I’m not alone.

I have dealt with depression, anxiety and adhd my whole life but for 25 years of it I was not properly diagnosed. My whole life flipped upside after a break up with a girlfriend of 10 years, I had been injured playing football (acl knee injury) meaning I was unable to peruse the one career that gave me true joy in life. Fast forward I started sertaline found a job and worked for 3 years. For me this was a big achievement as all of my previous jobs outside of football only lasted months as I would either impulsively leave or be sacked due to low attendance. Anyway, my depression comes in waves and one day at my most recent job a customer was rude to me (normal in a call centre fyi an AWFUL job if you are like me) and I got up and left. I texted my manager later that evening apologised and told them I’m going to have to leave as I don’t want to let them down (I was always off sick) and I could not guarantee my attendance. I then went back to the doctors and finally got diagnosed with adhd! I’m now on mertazapine which has helped with the extremes of depression but my anxiety is still prevalent. I am on the titration waiting list for adhd medication so fingers crossed. I have been put on LCWRA and I’m looking at it as a positive, for the first time in my life I don't have to struggle living in a world that doesn’t align with the way my mind perceives it. I’m joining the library and starting swimming, I’m going to get a bike and get more active. I might even go abroad (less than a month if I’m not mistaken) and see the world. Im 30, single with no kids, I get almost envious of peers who have married and built a family, one day I know I’ll have that but right now, I actually feel optimistic for the first time in a long time.

to conclude, I hope to chat with you all and share our experiences whatever they may be. I know I may of gave to much information but I want to publish this post in the hopes that someone will read this who is in a similar position and it will give them some sort of comfort to know we are all in this together and we can help each other grow.

Peace 😬

66Mustang

Welcome!!!! @Perseus93

I really enjoyed reading your story and glad to hear you're feeling more positive again

I'm actually the same age as you and kind of feel similar as I only made a start to "doing life" properly like a few months ago and I'm trying to build up to doing things I want to do. I'd be interested to learn more about how you are getting on and things and wonder if I could learn some things from your experiences, and maybe vice versa???

I think a little envy is normal, I get it myself, not for money and stuff but like you say for people who seem to be luckier and can do the stuff they want to. I actually used to get more envious, not of "normal" people with no health issues, but of people with problems who can still do stuff … it seemed doubly unfair, but I recently learnt to turn that round into an example that having issues does not mean you can't achieve stuff, and the same is going to happen to me, and already is

Sorry for going on about myself, I seem to do that too much but just trying to share that you're not in the boat on your own 😃…Anyway I hope you stay around on here!!!!

Rachel_Scope

Hi @Perseus93, welcome to the community 😊

It was lovely to read about your journey and how you are feeling so positive. A bike will be a great way to get out, as long as the weather stays nice! Where would you like to go abroad? I'm really excited for you and this new chapter in your life 😊

There are lots of lovely people here who will be able to share similar experiences. Have a look at the Coffee Lounge for some chit-chat or join in a game!