I just don't know what to do anymore I'm so worried and frightened and I just feel so unbelievably low and hoplessness. I am also in Terrible physical pain with my knees and back. It hurts me to walk and get up the stairs I have awful insomnia and I have been losing a lot of sleep due to pain and stress. I have told my GP and to be honest they just do not seem to care one bit I had to basically beg the last GP I seen for some pain gel for my back and knees. I have a curvature of the spine I was born with and arthritis in both my knees. I am also awaiting a physio appointment but it's a long list. My GP has also put me on 30 mg of codeine tablets. And I have told them I am still in awful pain despite taking the gel and tablets I am not sure but maybe I need a higher dose because I am only supposed to take two of the tablets which I do stick to most of the time but sometimes I have taken three. And the pain seems to go. When I explained this too my GP she went mad at me and told me off saying no I had to stick to two only and use my gel regularly along side it which I do anyways. But I feel like my GP doesn't really care to be honest especially when it comes to mental health all she says is sorry we not got a magic wand to make all your problems disappear just continue to take your sertraline and if you think of harming yourself call the Samaritans. She wouldn't even give me sleeping tablets she said we only prescribe them in extreme cases because they are highly addictive and I don't want you to be reliant on them. So I will give you this phone number for the sleep experts organization they are available twice a week and you speak to them over the phone. And hopefully they can draw up a plan for you to get some sleep. I just walked out of the doctors and I felt a lot worse because she in my opinion was useless. I feel like I am in a little box room it's dark and has no door or windows and I am just constantly screaming and screaming for help. I feel like that everyday and it's killing me and making me ill. I don't know what to do anymore I am sick of worrying and feeling hopeless all the time. If it was not for my son and my cats I don't think I would be here I find it too painful mentally and physically as well these days. Anyway sorry for the long post I just needed to vent some of what is happening to me.
