Worried sick

lukanmisskitty

I just don't know what to do anymore I'm so worried and frightened and I just feel so unbelievably low and hoplessness. I am also in Terrible physical pain with my knees and back. It hurts me to walk and get up the stairs I have awful insomnia and I have been losing a lot of sleep due to pain and stress. I have told my GP and to be honest they just do not seem to care one bit I had to basically beg the last GP I seen for some pain gel for my back and knees. I have a curvature of the spine I was born with and arthritis in both my knees. I am also awaiting a physio appointment but it's a long list. My GP has also put me on 30 mg of codeine tablets. And I have told them I am still in awful pain despite taking the gel and tablets I am not sure but maybe I need a higher dose because I am only supposed to take two of the tablets which I do stick to most of the time but sometimes I have taken three. And the pain seems to go. When I explained this too my GP she went mad at me and told me off saying no I had to stick to two only and use my gel regularly along side it which I do anyways. But I feel like my GP doesn't really care to be honest especially when it comes to mental health all she says is sorry we not got a magic wand to make all your problems disappear just continue to take your sertraline and if you think of harming yourself call the Samaritans. She wouldn't even give me sleeping tablets she said we only prescribe them in extreme cases because they are highly addictive and I don't want you to be reliant on them. So I will give you this phone number for the sleep experts organization they are available twice a week and you speak to them over the phone. And hopefully they can draw up a plan for you to get some sleep. I just walked out of the doctors and I felt a lot worse because she in my opinion was useless. I feel like I am in a little box room it's dark and has no door or windows and I am just constantly screaming and screaming for help. I feel like that everyday and it's killing me and making me ill. I don't know what to do anymore I am sick of worrying and feeling hopeless all the time. If it was not for my son and my cats I don't think I would be here I find it too painful mentally and physically as well these days. Anyway sorry for the long post I just needed to vent some of what is happening to me.

Albus_Scope

Heya @lukanmisskitty and welcome.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're having troubles with your GP. Have you looked into maybe going with a different GP? Sometimes some fresh eyes on a situation can make the world of difference. Though I would say keeping to the prescribed number of painkillers is super important, especially with codeine, so please be careful there. I know it seems like it's helping, but it can do some major damage in the long term.

I've popped you a little email, please keep an eye out for it. 😊

judie

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/120453/worried-sick

Sorry you're feeling so unlistened to by your doctor, it's awful when someone isn't connecting to you. As Albus said, a different GP may be an idea, someone who gets you. I have the same trouble when I need sleeping pills, my doctor is loathe to issue them because they are so addictive and can make things worse long term. You are so strong to deal with constant pain, I know I couldn't do it. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Vent anytime!

Numan

There is one anti depressant which can also help sleep,mirtazapine. [Removed by moderator - Medical advice].They may be willing to give you that along side your sertraline.

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onedayatatime

Hello @lukanmisskitty . As suggested, is there any way you could try to see a different GP at your surgery? Some form of help in managing your physical pain may help with your stress, insomnia and overall mental health. It's a vicious circle when you're both physically and mentally exhausted. I hope others can offer more advice, but I think it may be possible to self refer yourself for mental health support through the NHS, without your GP? Perhaps others may offer some advice about that, though I'm sure there will be long waiting lists. Do try and see a different GP as that has to be your first point of contact and do keep connected with everyone here. Take care.

Catherine21

I feel for you sounds alot to deal with health is wealth could you write down like you have on here ask for a different doctor and show them or keep a diary and show them there is some really good doctors out there and you deserve the best treatment and support don't be scared to ask for a different doctor that is your rights I really hope you find good support your not alone we definitely understand your worries and daily struggles x

lukanmisskitty

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/892808#Comment_892808

lukanmisskitty

Thank you Judie for your kind words. Yep my doctors are **** I have always been reluctant to leave and seek out a new GP because I have been with this current surgery all of my life. But it's definitely not what it once was. No sleep is awful because that is one of your escapes when you suffer with depression.

lukanmisskitty

Thank you Catherine 21. It's good to know I am not alone because I sometimes feel like I am. Thanks for the advice I have already started writing things down.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/893703#Comment_893703

That's really good me myself at times felt so low so vulnerable II don't have voice to advocate for myself but what I do know is i talk up for myself like I would for my dad daughter as I am very good at supporting them and don't let anyone treat them in any disrespectful way very protective especially of my dad as elderly so the love care kindness we show ourselves is good like you said your son your cats I bet you love them to moon and back like me ny furbabies too h

lukanmisskitty

@Numan thanks for the advice mitazapine been suggested to me by my GP but obviously I gotta be weened off of sertraline first. I got to admit the thought of that freaks me out a little bit but they want me to try this sleep clinic phone in first anyway so see how that goes.

lukanmisskitty

@onedayatatime thx for the advice I think I am gonna have to change my GP surgery.

lukanmisskitty

@Albus_Scope thx for the advice yeah I got the email.