Hi all,
Just wondered if anyone here lives with BPT2 at all?
If you do, how are you finding it? How does it impact you? How do you manage the cycles?
I got diagnosed in Oct 2022 following a suicide attempt and period of hospitalisation (informal).
I find that I have very severe and long lasting depressive episodes with the occasional hypo-manic episode.
When I am low, I push people away, my work performance suffers, I don't take care of myself very well, I essentially feel very hopeless and I also find that I have an increase in paranoia and 'dis-trust' in those close to me. I self-sabotage a lot, break down friendships almost go out of my way to punish myself. I also have suicidal ideation, all day, every day.
When I am hypo-manic I over spend, I engage in a LOT of exercise, I feel on top of the world, I do impulsive things like start small businesses, gamble and I have even in the past started to write a book about my life (because, you know, everyone needs to know about me).
I am on Olanzapine, Diazepam and Promethazine for my medication and due to a recent 'relapse' I have got to complete 6 weeks of intensive psychology. I have a feeling my Psychiatrist wants to re-diagnose me with Borderline Personality Disorder. I would fully understand why if I am honest but at the moment, we are working with Bi-Polar Disorder Type Two.
