Never learn

Catherine21

OK so I was having what I call fearless days where I don't think I just say so I emailed Stephen timms everything I was feeling the way people treated god I went in even said why do politicians act like kids in parliament said all problems come from politics I wrote this before riots so I said society is under great pressure god I wrote everything I did recieve a response saying he read with great intreast and passed on and I will recieve a response I'm terrified now my mental health all over place since last budget Why do I do these things then regret so so bad I cause myself drama and worry

Albus_Scope

It's ok @Catherine21 I know an MP and I'm sure your emails were nothing compared to some of the stuff he's received in the past! What's done is done, so the best thing to do is just try and hold off on sending the emails as I said before, wait until the next day.

Have you thought about journalling? It'd give you a chance to write all those feelings down, you could even write them as a pretend letter to your MP, but not actually send it?

Catherine21

Yes tbh I've learnt alot about myself and how I react to situations I've kept my world so isolated let no one in so I haven't had to deal with anything just me and my dogs and my never ending dialogue in my head and how I cannot deal with change I've been bubbling over since last year for the first time in along time I've actually looked at myself my triggers my behaviour and it needs to change and thats definitely something I'm changing how I'm to reactive and no logic I go to the worst case scenario all the time I put myself on this roller coaster being in the group looking back on what I write and written I'm definitely definitely going to sit on my feelings and definitely say if I feel same tomorrow then I react so thanks everyone for allowing me to work I'm so annoying when I'm panicking so breathe

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/897989#Comment_897989

I really appreciate all your kind words and support

Cantilip

Obviously not going to repeat but if you think of some of the awful stuff that's been on the streets, MPs get that too. I'm sure you haven't said anything awful, just showed yourself as a very frightened and distressed lady. What they're there for, knights in armour riding to the rescue - ha, ha. Seriously people are supposed to turn to MPs when we're upset.

Catherine21

Ah I said why are you throwing us to the lions put us all in the arena and be done with us Asked why does the goverment dislike disabled people how we beem treated by tories and said labour seems no different said the discrimination we recieved is horrific and I said it comes from parliament said cant believe how you all argue like kids what's that about your egos said think of the people god I said everything I said stop migration stop bullying of elderly and single mums I said about pip do not put it to vouchers change uc start thinking of the people said seen woman sleeping outside tescos people in parks in doorways shocking kids starving now your coming for us ! I said it's the psychology mind games is this done to keep us worn out and down god and more more

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/898123#Comment_898123

And today I had a ome to one managing my emotions and ny mentor said the same came from fear and I've been bubbling over for a year constantly stressed honestly been learning alot about myself obviously I won't be messaging big long winded abstracts of my mind one they probably couldn't understand my writing so good advice on here if I still feel same in the morning them send message yesterday I thought the police where gonna turn up in big meat wagon I did receive a reply he wrote I did read with great intreast and will be passing on to his department something like that I was like hell no the crazy thing is my fear is The DWP and I gone extreme

Cantilip

Yes the advice to not immediately send, sit on it, long as you can, think about it.

How it seems to me, what you're essentially saying - what a lot of people here are saying - is "Why am I a target?" Then the politicians blather that of course we're not, it's just that every time they open their mouths it looks as though we are. I think it matters that a lot of people ask that, doesn't matter about the spelling and whatever; the more people who refuse to shut up, the more likely it is they're going to answer.

Catherine21

Thankyou be intreasting to see how they respond god I am a bit anxious but it's done now arrgghh

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/898129#Comment_898129

And I also said your talking work work work what if you can't work I said there has been no reassuring the disabled community we feel very scared and vulnerable and letdown

egister

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/121167/never-learn

You did everything right! Make these slackers work