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Catherine21

After nearly 9 years of a relationship hes acting different it's obvious he's intreasted or seeing someone we don't live together and with my body dismorphia and other mental health issues I didn't really let him in even though I did in my own way I've tried to reach out but his tone intreast not thier no phone calls noting I'm really trying to keep level head trying not to punish myself and go down self hate Sabotage mode my mental health been horrific for months I was very good to him he's not English i helped him with everything language finding work navigating life I've done it to people I'm sure we all have at some point ended relationships just off loading one of my triggers is being abandoned I don't trust easy and I did him after so many years of testing this year been a big eye opening for me and the one thing I keep saying to myself don't go back to old habits over and over I'm 52 and I've actually said to myself don't force things that don't come naturally to me anymore and stop waiting for that call or text know my worth thankyou for letting me off load god from budget fear terror anxiety to thinking going to get arrested for email to having a drink and much more I'm really going to put myself first for a long time people definitely come and go god I'm the past of relationships ended I go out of my mind literally with grief suppose don't have energy

maxsmitt

well done, is wat i say,...being so low, confused, upset, you still managed to see your the star player here, and maybe you need pampering and remembering who you are. i often wonder if the struggle brings out qualities in us we never new we possessed..you no...xx. i would like to be a friend and maybe we can help eachother as in darkness the light is small but two lights can light a room. your doing great dont forget.

Catherine21

Thankyou very much !! Yes I cant repeat history and probably for the first time I have no regrets my peace of mind is more important not going to sit here punishing myself thankyou so much

Catherine21

I'm trying have moments of sadness but I think that couldn't be my ego my daughter said what did he actually do which is very true I'm so easy to be around don't go out at all have really bad anxiety loads of other things and it hurts me because he can go out socialise meet people so I imagine all sorts relationships are so hard for me just have to accept its not for me this year has been such an eye opener I've been forced to look deep into myself and it hurts sorry rambling on but definitely self care is needed I really need to focus on me and try to stop being a prisoner to my mind

Rachel_Scope

Hi @Catherine21. It seems you've helped this person a lot. If they don't see your worth then they're not worth your time. I'm glad you can see that 😊 Anxiety is so frustrating isn't it? It makes us think of so many horrible things! Try and move through those negative thoughts and focus on being positive for yourself. It sounds like you've already been doing that which is great. Self-care is incredibly important. How do you look after yourself?

Bluebell21

Hi @Catherine21 am sorry you feel sad. It is always disappointing when you help and support someone and they take and give very little back. Know you are worth more than this. You are special and must put your own self worth first.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/901641#Comment_901641

I do love a nice face cream pampering thankyou Rachel everyone so kind x

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/901642#Comment_901642

This true I'm a great empath and do more than I should I am going to focus on me x

Rachel_Scope

Ooh a face cream pamper sounds lovely. I have a stack of face masks that I've never used, maybe I should do one tonight. Yeah lets pamper ourselves tonight @Catherine21!

Catherine21

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