Mental health has taken a battering

mangomungo
mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
in Mental health and wellbeing

I hope this is ok to post, as a lot of people here due to the recent news of the benefits cuts my mental health has become dire 😞

(tw ed and suicide ideation I hope this is ok to post here I don’t want to trigger anyone)

But the only way I’ve been coping is by restricting my food and exercising, i feel completely hopeless and alone, I spend significant part of my day shaking in tears, and it’s not that I want to die because I don’t want to hurt my family but the thought of everything happening is too much for me to bare :( I’m not anywhere near underweight so no one would be interested in helping me and it’s the only thing I have at the moment so I don’t want to give it up either.

I’ve had suicide attempts in the past at age 14 and 19 and I’m now 26, I used to SH as a teenager but I don’t anymore and I don’t know what to do?
it feels so overwhelming and consuming and it doesn’t seem much worth a life to live in this state. I’ve had CBT DBT, private therapy, I’ve tried mindfulness etc but I’m currently on the autism/adhd pathway and none of it works, none of it helps. I’m on medication that used to take the edge off, but with everything happening I just can’t find any relief anywhere, my hearts always thumping, my memory is shocking.
I’m so fed up with feeling this way, I just wish I could be normal, people (not here, in general population and government) seem to not believe me and think I’m just doing it for the sake of it to stay at home? That I’m exaggerating? That I’d be fine once I was in the workforce? No, every day is a living hell and has been since I was a teenager. there’s no point going anywhere other than here for support because there isn’t anything :(

Again I hope this is ok to post here, I’ve found it to be really supportive and it’s one of the only places I feel able to be truthful.

I hope no one here feels similar to me but if they do, I’m sending love your way ❤️

Comments

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering

    thank you both ❤️

  • Hopeless
    Hopeless Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 1,033 Pioneering

    You are not alone, I feel exactly the same and have a similar history to you. There seems little understanding of mental illness amongst those in charge of the country. We will survive whatever they throw at us together

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926200#Comment_926200

    I’m sorry you feel this way too it’s awful - seems like we’ve gone back decades in awareness of mental health

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing
    edited October 2024

    Because apparently our "common" mental health conditions are mild therefore manageable with targeted support from those JCP experts 😓

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926212#Comment_926212

    It really is shocking - especially as there is literally no support, I don’t think the job centre staff would want to deal with people in mental health crises either. I just hope we’ll all be okay

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing
    edited October 2024

    In DWP speak, there are common and serious mental health conditions 😓

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926224#Comment_926224

    There really isn’t - I suffer from ‘mild’ mental health issues all the time but they can easily tip to severe such as psychosis and I get physical tics when stressed, I never thought we would reach a point where the Tories were ‘better’ on mental health than labour :(

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926241#Comment_926241

    Thank you so much - I’m sure doctors will be overwhelmed this week - I managed to email my local MP yesterday aswell so I’ve done all I can.
    Sending you so much love we can all get through this together there’s strength in numbers ❤️❤️

  • Durhamshire
    Durhamshire Community Member Posts: 69 Contributor

    I feel very very similar to the comments made. Why are we being put through this torment, being made the scapegoats when we obviously need this help & support.

    I am neglecting myself. Eating little, hygiene standards practically none existent, self harming is becoming more prevalent.

    I feel there will be more blood on the Government's hands. We all do our best to manage/cope, but just keep getting kicked in the face. It's deplorable.

    I am so low, so sad, so desperate. Feel very much alone. I ask to be taken regularly each day. At least then these horrendous feelings will be gone. Noone will miss me.

    You lot being here are helping me.

    I find weekends extremely difficult.

    I send my love and best wishes.

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing
    edited October 2024

    Afternoon vikki, not yet 😅 just lots and lots of tea

    DWP now considers several mental health conditions to be 'common' - autism, ADHD, bi-polar etc

    Active psychosis is classed as 'serious' - there are others

  • Durhamshire
    Durhamshire Community Member Posts: 69 Contributor

    I have to be honest. I am petrified for any future I may have. Suicidal thoughts ( which are with me everyday) are moving up the list of my daily thoughts. I can feel them moving back up to top spot.

    Is this what the Government wants?? To get rid of those struggling with mental and physical health challenges

    I see no other way out for myself. I have very little fight left in me.

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing
    edited October 2024

    ElizaRose, we know these mental health conditions are neither mild nor common. Just a myth the DWP is now using to get the general public onside. It's inevitable that physical injury and disability would also affect mental health.

    I'm appalled to hear of the 'work coach' ringing your son in hospital 😣

  • Durhamshire
    Durhamshire Community Member Posts: 69 Contributor
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926335#Comment_926335

    Thanks for your kind words. I have no kids, family or support. You lovely people are helping me greatly.

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing
    edited October 2024

    vikki, stationery and pens I have a little stash 😊

    Collected carrier bags in my teens 😄

  • Durhamshire
    Durhamshire Community Member Posts: 69 Contributor

    Managed to leave the flat. Only for 30 mins or so, but seeing as achievement. Had to mega force myself as find it difficult being around people. Got a bottle of milk and some unhealthy bits to eat, just in case I get an urge to nibble on something

    Also had me COVID and FLU jabs. So something inside must want to stick around. Surgery wasn't busy, so easier to do than expected

  • mangomungo
    mangomungo Community Member Posts: 174 Empowering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926379#Comment_926379

    Well done I know how difficult that can be ❤️❤️

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 6,026 Championing

    😥

  • Durhamshire
    Durhamshire Community Member Posts: 69 Contributor
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926400#Comment_926400

    Apologies. Clicking the 'Awesome' was to support You and what You said

  • egister
    egister Posts: 1,102 Pioneering
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/926236#Comment_926236

    Newspeak

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