Scared of starting work but feel I have no choice

bluefate

hi there, I’ve been diagnosed with autism, adhd and hidradenitis suppurativa (painful, smelly skin condition), anxiety and depression to name a few.

I’ve been thinking about starting employment for some time now but I don’t know what I could even do. I’ve been out of employment for 10 years but I was previously a kitchen porter. Over the years, my hidradenitis suppurativa has gotten worse but so has my mental health. I’m lucky if I get 5 hours of interrupted sleep a night because that’s when my anxiety and overthinking/paranoia is at its worst. I have no skills other than those of a kitchen porter, cleaning dishes etc.

I accidentally came across a video of someone packing orders in an Amazon warehouse and thought the job ticked all the boxes. Night shift, working alone, pay that could cover the bills and something repetitive and easy but I’ve since learned that I’d be constantly moved from one department to the next. That, as well as the fact there is only temporary, fixed jobs and not permanent, I feel it wouldn’t be suitable. I feel like I’m damned not only mentally but physically as well.

I’ve twice used the scope work support and both times I’ve had a serious life event that affected me so badly I just gave up and I now feel I won’t be accepted onto the programme a 3rd time.

So i suppose my question is, how do i move forward and get a job I can do and keep?

Thank you for reading.

Holly_Scope

Hi @bluefate just wanted to let you know you can still apply to use the Scope work support if you found it helpful previously and wanted to use it again. 🙂 I've added the link below where you can sign up for this online. Support to Work | Disability charity Scope UK