I'm new here and hope someone can help me with advice.
Im receiving contributory ESA and have been since 2007. I was claiming for depression and anxiety and also for bladder incontinence (From Birth)
In 2018 Due to a stage 3 cancer diagnosis I had to undergo a complete bladder removal and various other bits and pieces.
The operation left me with nerve damage to my leg and also aggravated a bowel incontinence that Ive also had since birth. During the operation I had a uninary stoma fitted. I rang the DWP to let them know I was changing address to move in with My girlfriend as I couldnt cope alone anymore and said I'd had cancer and an operation for it. Recently Ive been second guessing myself and although my girlfriend is sure I told them about the stoma, I honestly dont remember if I definitely did.
I fully expected to be sent for reassessment but wasnt , although I did receive a letter confirming the address change and they actually asked if i wanted them to look into whether I shoiuld have been getting more benefits before I moved.
I declined as I really didnt need anymore hassle at the time and was in a really bad place. My stoma bag leaks at least twice a week and I lose control of my bowel functions also at least 2-3 times a week every damn week.
At the moment I cannot eat or sleep for worrying, I spend half the time just crying out of worrying. I still suffer from Depression and anxiety quite badly.
I do intend to start work and get off benefits this year anyway and become self employed with the help of a friend.
What on earth should I do?
How much trouble am I in?
I have also I admit been having some pretty dark thoughts.
Can someone please Help me?
Please?