Do you feel like something is missing?

JD_INCINERATOR

I can't help but think the reason I don't have a partner or children is somewhat to do with my medical condition Hydrocephalus. I know my personality traits like introversion and being a loner don't help, but I'm not sure how I can break out of this cycle. I find that I'm so much more talkative and expressive through my writing than I am with speaking. I think people might think that I want to be unbothered, but in reality I want to talk to people and make connections.

I'll admit I am garnering feelings of envy towards couples who have children because I want that for myself and yet I haven't found anybody. I reckon it's because I'm not my fullest self, but I'm not sure how I can shut out these feelings and just be content with what I already have.

Rosie_Scope

Hi @JD_INCINERATOR, it's a tough one. The physical and mental health effects of living with a disability or condition can make it really difficult to make connections with people sometimes. I think it's natural to have some envy towards people who have what you don't too.

Are there any groups that you could join to meet other people? I know that can be a really big step if you're used to being on your own but it could be worth exploring. You could see if there's something gentle you could join in with either online or in person if that's something you'd be able to access.

Speaking to someone neutral can sometimes help to talk through what you're feeling, help you accept yourself and build your self esteem. Have you had any counselling or mental health support?

I hope some of our members will have some advice too, I'm sure many will be able to relate to how you're feeling about things.