I have a wellbeing team meeting on Monday, should I ask about psychiatry among other things?

JasonRA

I was just wondering what does a person speak about when with a Wellbeing Team person? He is travelling to meet me and I don't know if it's about my history, diagnoses, what I'm like ect. I can't articulate on the spot so my mother is going to write a note to the person.

I've been basically waiting for a psychiatric evaluation since 2007, I'm now 36, so half my life of this though I did work and study for years after leaving school in 2005 not without issues like attacking the manager at my previous job, being arrested on numerous occasions for violence in public and domestic settings.

Outlook SouthWest wrote a long list of what was wrong with me in 2015 but I ignored it because I thought I was over diagnosed.

In 2007 I was diagnosed with Depression but it didn't inhibit study or work, I just got on with it, in 2022 I was diagnosed with CPTSD after I broke down in tears and talked about being sexually abused as a child.

I'm tired of having to validate myself, having to prove I'm guilty of being ill and needing help then seeing the news and every time seeing a story about how "mental illnesses" are mocked as playacting or an "easy ride". It's getting to the point where I've had to be restrained on two occasions for wanting to go outside with the intention of creating public acts of violence, compared to my timid and shy calmer self, the rage is like Jekyll and Hyde.

I feel personally insulted, the system did jack when I needed help all those years ago, I was public enemy number 1 at school due to a fight involving me breaking into the kitchen getting a sharp implement, been a loner incapable of any friendship or relationship and now the system says I put it on for benefits. See why I'm so hateful and bitter?

How can I recover from something which hasn't been diagnosed by psychiatry? If I knew the problem I could try to fix it. Then my cervical neck issue goes on and off with neuralgia in my left arm which I'm on a physio list for.

Just needed to vent, only my mother and my brother (despite his brain damage) cares for me, I want to recover to live not exist, I want to work again, I'm 37 in December, grey hairs appearing on lower chin, I'm getting too old for being some Cornish Norman Bates.

66Mustang

@JasonRA

I don't feel up to writing a proper reply and when I did would rather send it privately anyway but just want to say before I write something proper, so you know someone's at least seen & clicked with your post

This struck a chord with me, even though the cause and manifestation of my CPTSD does not mirror yours… to an observer the cause & current manifestation of PTSD is everything; but for those actually suffering with it I'm starting to learn how we're all in such a similar place and can support each other