Hi, my name is idontknow!

idontknow

I don't know if I have dissociation or not. I do know I disappear into my own thoughts all the time. Examples are when I am anxious or stressed, which is a lot of the time. I have always daydreamed. I was a patient in a mental hospital in 1990 and nothing decided, I got a job and while there I began to think people where repeating to me some of my thoughts. This made me mentally ill and I was hospitalised again. I told them about people repeating some of my thoughts, nobody discussed this with me and I was put on an anti-psycotic. The thoughts that people repeated my thoughts became less but not totally gone. Years later the thoughts came back again and I was hospitalised again. I was again put on a anti psychotic.

I have had continuas emotional and psychological abuse from my mother and my husband, I am now 65 and my mother is dead and I have left my husband.

I would like to ask if when I am in my world I could be speaking what I am thinking, but because I am so far into my own world I don't realise I am actually speaking. Is this possible.

Mary_Scope

Hi @idontknow and a warm welcome to the community from me!

Thank you for telling us a little about yourself. Have you shared your concerns with your GP about this? Or maybe a mental health professional if you're under their services as I would imagine they would have the knowledge, expertise and ability to help around this.

It's lovely to have you here and I hope you enjoy your time on the community😄

idontknow

Yes I am being helped by the CMHT. They are very good, I believe they have been trying to make me aware of what is happening, because I haven't understood what was going on. They have also been helping me be more psychologically strong to be able to deal with it.

Thanks for your comment