Not been feeling great.

ryleyyg

so my mind has been spiralling with anxiety, I normally don’t make online friends but I tired with this one person back in November. I’m not really good at friendships and because of that I ruined it.

I said I may have feelings towards them. Which to me i thought it was okay to let it out so they would know. But I think it made them uncomfortable, and so now I remember how stupid I was. And so I tried apologizing multiple times and I got blocked and tried again.. I’m a very apologetic person. I feel bad and awful haven’t contacted them since, there friend blamed me for harassment.. which only because I wanted closure.

I haven’t really spoken to anyone about because I’m scared what people might think of me. I haven’t spoken or contacted since then, but it has arisen in my mind an I keep thinking about how awful I am and I don’t know what to do. So I’m stuck in constant anxiety mode.

Any help or tips would be really appreciated!

Trevor_PIP

@ryleyyg You said something you thought at the time was right, it happens to a lot of people, you realised you may be should not have said it and apologised. You can't do anymore and worrying about it will not change it. Relax, it happens to a lot of people, you have done your best to put it right so move on now!

ryleyyg

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1083765#Comment_1083765

I appreciate this thank you!
I guess because I suffer with anxiety it’s replaying in my mind.

I am going to do different activities so I do not think of the situation that happened.

lisajane100

Dont feel bad for having the confidence to tell someone who you believe is a friend how you feel , if anything that takes courage . If what you say sends someone packing then they not the right one for you . Close this door and hopefully you will find a friend who accepts you for you. Good luck

ryleyyg

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1083767#Comment_1083767

thank you! The only thing I felt awful about was trying to find ways of contacting them to apologise…when they didn’t want it. I know what I did was silly off me. But I have definitely learnt from this situation massively and how I see conversations now!

lisajane100

It's not silly , we all deal with situations in our own unique way and to some it may not be there way , i totally get you wanting to apologise but if they close that door then that's the end , but it does leave you feeling pretty crappie, i know as I have been there , when I read your article I could so relate to you and had to reach out . Learning is good , it stops us from getting hurt or disappointed in the future

ryleyyg

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1083770#Comment_1083770

I appreciate this! And yes I agree I have learnt so much!
I guess because I haven’t had friends for many years I just don’t know how to handle the situation well, in what led me to being blamed for harassment for just apologising a bit too much..

but I have definitely learnt a lot!

from my past actions that’s for sure!

lisajane100

Accused of Harassment is harsh ! Seriously are we not aloud as human beings allowed to make a mistake or not read a situation well , or be left feeling rubbish just because you want to apologise.

ryleyyg

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1083776#Comment_1083776

I do agree! We all make mistakes in life and we just have to keep moving forward!!!
at least i know how to approach conversations well now though!

lisajane100

Well you have done this conversation great ! Be happy and good luck to you