If you feel like you can't do this anymore, please read this.

marmitelover2000

Today is a difficult day for some people. It marks another year of no answers. Another year of pain and suffering and you feel like you are watching the years drift by.

I know this because I feel exactly the same. I often dream about how great the world will be without me in it.

I won't lie, what is happening to you is tough. Most people couldn't even dream about the hardships you face on a daily basis. That's because most people aren't as tough as you are. You are strong and resilient- you always have been.

The idea of "New year " is a false one. Its an excuse to get out and party and drink. Its a fun holiday we celebrate and use as an excuse to try something new. That's all it is. A day- like every other day. You will get through it like you get through every other day.

It won't be easy but I promise it's worth it. You are in the depths at the moment, things can only get better. It doesn't seem that way but they can.

Although, That's not really important.

What is Important is the small impacts we have on other people that we will never know about. Something as small as a smile at someone who is having a bad day can change their life- you can't even begin to imagine how many lives you changed for the better.

You have potential - well I would argue it doesn't matter whether i live or die. Except it does. That potential means you have a unique experience that could help someone else. Your pain gives you the unique insight nobody else has. So that one fay - you can prevent others from having to go through the same pain you did.

This is what our ancestors did. You can look back at the family tree. Each name represents someone who had to overcome pain, suffering and hardship so that you could live. They survive inside you- their sacrifices make you . whatever sacrifices you make or hardships you face- makes the world better for someone else.

Thinks feel bleak because they are. You need something light to guide you out of the darkness. A friendly face to give you a shoulder to cry on. You may think " I don't deserve it." or "I don't want to waste their time"

Think: If you could save the life of a friend, family member or even a stranger just by listening to them- would you ?

At least then you could say you did everything you could. You gave people a golden chance to save your life so they don't have to feel any guilt.

Your ancestors sacrifices won't be in vain.

Please reach out to someone. Even if its a random person like me on the internet. If it's any constellation- I would give away all my Christmas chocolate to have that opportunity to help you.

You are doing a good job. You have been working hard. You need a break and to be kind to yourself. Hang in there. Life is tough, but you are tougher ❤️

Catherine21

Thankyou very heartfelt and needed ❤️