is it just a rebound from servere depression? and any thoughts on diazpam?

Amazonianup

Hello and good day,

I guess im back with some questions if anyone else has depression with irritability creep up on them after a while and youre then suckered in, maybe 2 months before i felt it but i hid it well then it just absorbed me until i needed help but couldnt see it.

I was able to function more today i did some day to day things and i took my dog for some water sport fun. (i could fake it till i made it and pretend the smile and wave you know the routine of passers by when you might get are you okay? and well you just tell them the okay that your politely supposed to say instead of letting it flood out).

I dont have control over my mood i cant change it completely but its i just seem to have more control how i react since being on diazepam or maybe its i feel less guilt for the emotions im struggling to control.

I obviously cant take diazapam forever (im still having a tipple of alchol) to quiet my thoughts but does anyone else use diazepam this way or recommend anything else prescribed this way that has less possibility of addiction?

god bless

Ross1975

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1111935#Comment_1111935

My doctor changed my anti depressant to one called Mirtazapine which helps me sleep better.

Amazonianup

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1111952#Comment_1111952

I had mirtazapine years ago they can make you tired temporarily as its histamine or something like that it might make you might just feel more irritable like me as you want sleep but doesnt work. I find blood pressure medication can make restless nights easier as it dulls your bodies response to stress helping the process but not a cure. if my mental health decides to go a certain way its often easier for me to ride it out. trying to sleep just leads to fustration. (i find natural remedies not to be a cure and if at your worst self care or help are not the thing i can reach for). I find drink can slow thoughts down and thats what im worried would happen with diazepam. Reading or something like that isnt and option (worst advice like this from gps or NHS sleep guides they think the brain can process things). a radio or podcast in the background can be fleeting distraction of background noise i dont intently try to listen but its like running water in a dark room.

Its the flipping the thoughts that can be difficult if stress is in the body things other than medication for sleep wont work but its like a spectrum where the body and head is at. You might find daridoraxant might help for sleep for you.

Amazonianup

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1112062#Comment_1112062

I also dont have a balance. i dont think exists for me i cant be aware of the downfall happening. I only just started diazapam again i only had a few times. I overdosed while back so im picking up scripts weekly. i dont want it really long term and neither does gp he said. I was at breaking point. Im able to type now but im finding concerntration difficult but the noise in my head is quieter for good and bad. On alchol i generally talk when people start a conversation and talk just to avoid the quiet space where my issues hide. but i have recently just realised maybe its something i just have to try manage better like you iv realised im trying to find some kind of balance for the first time.

Amazonianup

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1112092#Comment_1112092

yh i agree i wish you the best. I hope you find what works for you. to be honest its not the gp i rely on its failed me more than once. i honestly dont think the NHS knows mental health its not designed to catch you before you break. If i didnt have a lady i will refer to as J id probably be dead. I think understanding your brain is wired a certain way is half the battle find that someone that can advocate for you more often than not they can get you the help you need. I just wish i knew it sooner. Good luck x