I'm so done

sosad999
sosad999 Community Member Posts: 46 Contributor

I can't live like this. Its just too hard.

I rang initial response yesterday and they tried to call me back at 2.30am. There was no way I was answering it at that time. [Removed by moderator]

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  • Rachel_Scope
    Rachel_Scope Posts: 4,145 Online Community Team

    Hi @sosad999, I'm sorry you're hurting so much right now. If you feel you're in immediate danger, you can ring 999 or go to your nearest hospital. I've given you this information as part of our safeguarding policy.

    How are things going with your therapist? Did you feel able to open up to them?

  • sosad999
    sosad999 Community Member Posts: 46 Contributor

    I'm trying to be more open in both the group and 1-2-1 therapy. I didn't realise how high and strong my protective walls are and how hard it is to be vulnerable even in what feels like a controlled environment. I just want to stop thinking and feeling and an overdose, controlled or otherwise feels like the best way as I'm avoiding alcohol.