Hi. The poet, nature lover, disability activist sides of me was frustrated, the self hating/checking humility/social+ethical anxiety side of me was having a great time. Or rather not.
I'm a parent without diagnosis somewhere between developmental disabilities like dyspraxia or autism and mental health trouble and possibly a v. slight hearing impairment that only gets a tiny mention in historical footnote of doctors appointments, my children both have different brain based/developmental disabilities, both relatively invisible. Most people assume my daughter is autistic but her brother is, she has acquired brain injuries from neonatal sepsis. But it's a small percentage of what you notice about us.
I'm into poetry and nature, spirituality, and politics. I was the odd bean who was going to save the world with kickass eco feminism, faith and/or social justice at school and this was an element of stonewalling and gaslighting away the social/bullying and practical and educational problems I was having at school. I had opportunity for wider disability awareness I took hold of long before I was definite I might fit in that bracket. I care about inspiration **** and inclusion issues and have been aware a long time.
But I haven't got CP and I'm not that springwatch poet. Or close to him. I don't know if I am getting it all wrong being uncomfortable with the snippet I saw on Twitter. The words in the toasty actor voice, I'm not making hurtful assumptions here I hope, were beautiful words. But I think it seemed far too schmaltzy exploitation and inspirational ambience talking about poetry and not enough of the poetry used in the installation. I know there's an issue about presentation, an actors voice is often used for poetry and it's like typing up work but possibly appropriate for the purpose of the piece, but still something felt quite wrong and I don't know if I am allowed to say that or explore it, though I just have? Is it about being disabled enough, that person, my missing a trick?
https://mobile.twitter.com/BBCSpringwatch/status/924659616293593088