Positive or negative?
I often have people tell me I am negative. I would like to explain something.
If I go to bed and stay there the pain I suffer will stop completely. If I do not do this I must take strong pain medication to combat the pain which goes on 24/7.
Every time I wake up I have to force myself to get up and move about knowing the pain will get worse and knowing that if I didn't it would stop.
Moving around the house getting food and drink and doing things like coming on here but spending most of the day in my chair creates pain at the moan level. To go out raises that level considerably. Most days I go out because I choose not to give in.
If I go out, sit a lot, stay out for a short time and see few people I am at the shout level of pain. I choose to play games, move about talking to people, going to the pub and many other actions. This sort of activity pushes me to the scream level. I choose to do this also some days.
If I get sciatica (currently in both legs simultaneously) I do not lie down. I take more medication, walk with my legs as straight as possible, accentuate the limp and keep going. I choose to accept this as part of keeping going.
I never give up. I go through this every day and every time I sleep and waken. Am I not allowed to complain at times that I do this with no support at all and am constantly let down for completely trivial reasons?
Now tell me I am being negative!!!!