hi everyone Neil here, wasn’t sure if i was ever going to post another note to you again but here i am, on Wednesday morning i tried to commit Suicide and ended up in intensive care. I got to a point where in my life i really couldn’t see another way out, things really where difficult and ending my life was easy. When i was taking the overdose i wasn’t sad but happy i wouldn’t have to try and cope with life and my disability anymore. It was all planned so i locked the windows and doors and went for it. I don’t remember anything after that, all i do remember is waking up in hospital in intensive care with tubes and wires sticking out of me and nurses running around trying to talk to me. After 3 or 4 days of trying to get my feelings under control the mental health team came to visit me. With the long chat over they decided i was fit and able to go home . One thing i did Agee to was to have regular appointments with there team to make sure i told them everything and i never got to a point where Suicide was the only option available. It’s only been a few days so I’ve got a long way to go but as I’m typing this post i know I’m going to need a lot of help to get through what ever is happening with myself and I’m going to need my friends even more. I’ll let you know how things are going from time to time and maybe let you into why i came to the decision to end my life so keep checking this wonderful forum because without it there would be a lot of unhappy disabled people around. Take care everyone it’s been a pleasure posting. NC
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