Humiliated by PIP assessor.
I went for a PIP review assessment yesterday (April 24) and while I was expecting it to be stressful, I was not expecting it to be utterly horrifying. I suffer from anxiety, depression and a mental illness called borderline personality disorder. In addition I have fybromyalgia and a chronic eye condition. My main claim for help regards my mental health problems which impact my life on a daily basis. The assessor was horrible. She clearly had no understanding of mental health matters in general and most certainly no understanding of the nature of BPD. She ignored my husband when he tried to exlain how nervous I was and how the whole process of filling in the forms and attending the interview had affected my mental stability. She then ripped into me demanding to know when I had last tried to kill myself and why hadn't I tried more recently. She demanded to know when I'd last self harmed, how I did it and how bad it was and then demanded to see my scars. I came away from the assessment feeling utter humiliated and degraded. All my hard won progress, all the good done by therapy was undone by that insensitive woman in an hour. I haven't slept. My mind is in turmoil. I feel worthless and my self hatred has been re-triggered along with the urge to self harm. The PIP process does not allow for mental health conditions at all. There should be a different process and there should be someone with a real working knowledge of mental illness in all its forms doing the assessing. Stability is a very fragile thing for people with BPD. My mental health has actually been made worse by the process and regardless of the outcome of the interview, it will take me months to recover. I don't think I can go through this process again, it's too much.