Hi, my name is sonic57!
I have had lifelong mental health issues but now am physically restricted due to a heart procedure that was meant to help also grieving loss of loved ones. Just want not to be around any more. It's everyday torture and my family have to see someone that they don't recognise or know how to deal with. I have a psychiatrist, therapist, CPN etc but even they're at a loss. Been bad before but never like this.