Feeling like I’m relapsing again not coping well

cupcake88

Hi every one 

Its started snowing in my area I have been dreading snow for months . Snow /ice triggers bad memories for my self . As soon as I see snow my ptsd is triggered even seeing it on telly makes me really I’ll . It could be the tiniest amount of snow and my ptsd is triggered . I can see it snowing outside it’s not settling but I’m in a massive panic . 

I have spoken to the crisis team today and there gonna get my nurse to call me tomorrow . I feel like I’m relapsing again the voices in my head are getting louder and I can see the devil again he’s out side my window in my garden my partner said there’s nothing there but I see the horned creature I’m very scared . I just took a diazepam on top of my other medications and still feel panicked . 

I’m trying to distract my self so I have come on here but I’m looking out the window and it’s still there . 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 shut your curtains  try and relax  tell me about nice things you have done in  your life  have you  done interesting things what do you like doing ? 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 are you ok 

cupcake88

My partner is on the phone to the crisis team again as he said he’s worried bout me but I just can’t stop looking outside I’m scared . 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 try not to look out the window  sit down take deep breaths in and out  try to forget about outside its ok no one is going to hurt you 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 dint be scared your partner is eith you and he is trying to get you help 

cupcake88

Yes my partner is amazing he can’t see what I can see I’m feeling very anxious . The crisis team are comming out to see me I think I’m not well again . 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 thats good that your partner is good and someone is comeing out  your going to be ok  your safe and uour inside  try and sit down and stay calm and think of good things 

chiarieds

Oh, my dear friend, please take comfort in the fact your partner appreciates your concerns, & will do his utmost to help. Try not to be scared; the past is the past, & you really can look forward to a better future with your loving partner. He's your rock, & will always there for you, as are your friends here.

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 I know your scared  but its not realy happening  its gone its in the past  try and put goid thoughts in your head and breath in and out  help is comeing and your partner is there 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 I know what is like I have been there  and belive me its not real its your past  it can't hurt you now  your in a different place now  try to push it away 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 are you ok 

cupcake88

The crisis team are on there way and my partner is here . I’ll keep every one updated I’m just really not so good at the moment . 

Lisatho11987777

 @cupcake88 thats fine  take care  and thst will be good to know how you are thinking of you

woodbine

@cupcake88 hopefully the diazepam will start to kick in, I know when i'm given it for my worst seizures it sends me to sleep. We are all thinking of you and hope you feel better tomorrow. John x

Cressida

@cupcake88 I hope you feel better today, I have been thinking about since reading your post. I hope the crisis team can help. Despite your own issues you are so caring and thoughtful towards others. Take care. 

Cress

Sending you my best wishes....
Hope you get the help you need and get back on track.

Ami2301

Sending you lots of love and hugs @cupcake88 ❤

Ross_Alumni

Hope you're doing okay @cupcake88

We all send you best wishes. 

cupcake88

Hi every one thanks for your kind words , the crisis team decided I wasn’t poorly enough for hospital but not well enough to be just under my community team . They feel I need to go  back under the home based treatment team where they can come out to me a few times a day or constantly call me so sort of hospital from home I feel like this is going back wards . 

I was given a injection to calm me down and to help with my voices and with seeing things . I feel really exhausted but wanted to let you all know how iam . 

I haven’t been taking my medication properly so I’ll be having anti pychotic meds in injection form every 4 weeks which has upset me as I’m going backwards they no longer trust me to take my medication . 

I’m feeling really tiered I’ll be back on soon just wanted to update you all . Thanks for the kind words . I’m really not so well at the moment I’ll be back on soon x 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 take the time to get better glad your getting the help you need 
Take care ?