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I am in a manic phase, but heavily sedated so quite calm at the moment. But I am spending too much money, particularly on Amazon. I am in debt due to my financially abusive ex partner - relationship ended 2 weeks ago, hence the bipolar relapse. I am struggling with depression and mania, rapid cycling and to cheer myself up, I buy myself little gifts. I get satisfaction from browsing, the pleasure of finding just the right item with the perfect motto and the excitement of the package(s) arriving within a day or 2. I have just enough money to pay my bills next month and am in the process of re-instating my PIP and Disability premium, but this will take time. My ex owes me £15,000 and I will have to take him to court but there is no guarantee that I will be successful. So I am in a financial bind but just can't seem to stop the spending. It's mainly little things like mugs, fridge magnets etc, but I did buy an Amazon tablet as my ex stole mine and my laptop is on its way out, plus it was £20 off (see I'm justifying myself). I live alone and although I have plenty of support from friends and professionals, I get very lonely at night. Sorry to ramble on and don;' know what replies I expect, just had to get the guilt off mu chest. Thanks for taking the time to read this