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Mammoth

Hi all.
About 3 years ago I was diagnosed with depression but after the 2+ years recently I am at a all time low but now getting flashbacks, crying randomly, on edge all the time, contemplating self harm to either give me a reason to cry, or to focus a pain rather than how I feel inside.
I have tried talking to gp but just upped my meds and other than that I'm waiting on outlook southwest. 

I'm just feeling lost. 

Ami2301

Hi @Mammoth and I'm sorry to how you have been feeling. I personally suffer with flashbacks, due to PTSD, and I can definitely relate to feeling lost. We're not medical professionals nor qualified, but we are a friendly bunch of people and we're here for you.

I'm sure a member of the community team will reach out to you soon to offer support

leeCal

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been feeling depressed, have you anything you can do to take your mind off it? Sometimes we dwell on things and ruminate and it can make things seem worse. Have you anyone you can talk to, perhaps a friend or relative? 

Try to remember how strong you really are, deep inside you must be to have struggled with depression for three years or so. Try also to get some good sleep tonight and I hope that tomorrow will feel like a a brand new day for you, as of course it is. 
Best wishes. 

Cher_Alumni

Hi @Mammoth How are you doing today?

I'm sorry things remain hard emotionally for you and thank you for reaching out to tell us more, so we can help.  Do you have any idea how long you will be waiting for the Outlook South West appointment?  Also, did you tell your GP about your thoughts of self-harm?  It may be that you need a little more time to feel the benefit of your medication increase, however this is something you'd need to liaise with your GP about so don't hesitate to make an appointment if you feel things are no better/worsening, or you could always ask to speak with a different doctor for a second opinion.  

Previously, I mentioned some mental health organisations who you could speak to at any time.  Please do give these a call/text if you need someone to talk to.  They are:

• Call The Samaritans on 116123 or email jo@samaritans.org.
• Text 'SHOUT' to 85258 to speak with a trained crisis volunteer from SHOUT
• Find a local urgent NHS mental health helpline
• Call the Respect helpline to get support with domestic abuse

While if ever you feel that you might harm yourself, or your welfare might be in danger, please call 999 and ask for the relevant emergency services.  

Do you have anything nice planned for today?  The sunshine is a great mood lifter for some people so maybe distracting yourself with a bit of gardening or a little walk might be a positive boost?

Please keep us posted and I hope things will feel brighter for you soon