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A Long Post... any advice please?

oldngrumpy
oldngrumpy Member Posts: 186 Pioneering
Hello Folks

I was involved in a RTA when I was 11 years. 
This was in 1979. Yes I am that old.
I'm not going to list them the injuries, but I was in a bad way. Real bad.
The only thing that pulled me through this life changing event, apart from all the superb NHS staff.
Was my fitness and positive mind from my beloved Judo. This I have not done since, and this is the biggest frustration I have ever had to endure.
Totally devastating, no more Judo.....
I never realised this but I was told I was depressed from the early days after coming out of coma.
Twenty three years after this date I had a breakdown. 
Sent to see a Psychologist.
I was also put on medication. But this didn't help. I was told you can take as many meds as you want these will not make an ounce of any difference. Its damage to the Brain that's causing your depression.

I still have the "grizzles" but I can't explain this, I seem to just get on with my day. Still have negative thoughts and I talk negative. This I am terrible with.
Can the Brain (Folks reading this I know this may sound like a load of balls) sort of bypass the tears, the crying and pain and just get on with life. I make this sound patronising/easy,
I can assure you my life like others, isn't.

Depression/Mood Swings/Anxiety. 
Are just inconveniences in my life.
I regularly think about death and the "S" word.

Folks I am not hard. I cry/fill up everyday.

People have said to me...
You're not disabled/sick (mental problems)
I never show any signs of.
This frustrates me. I sometimes wish I was a little more disabled. Then I can show that I am not a hoax/fraud.

But back to what I mentioned earlier.
Can the mind just get on with things and blank out some of the problems mentioned?

This is a long post. Apologies.

Thank you!

Comments

  • woodbine
    woodbine Member, Community Co-Production Group Posts: 7,715 Disability Gamechanger
    @oldngrumpy never appologise for a long post, sometimes it helps to get things off our chest. I think sometimes the mind can blank out some of the bad stuff we have had to go through to get where we are today.
    Don't forget if you need to talk to someone in your darkest times that the samaritans are there 24/7 on 116 123.
    Be extra nice to new members.
  • leeCal
    leeCal Member Posts: 6,425 Disability Gamechanger
    Your post isn’t that long and it’s good to ‘talk’ it out sometimes.
    all the best @oldngrumpy.

    “This is my simple religion. No need for temples. No need for complicated philosophy. Your own mind, your own heart is the temple. Your philosophy is simple kindness.” 
    ― Dalai Lama XIV

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