Hi everyone!
I'm new to this forum but not new to pain, which I've had for the last 7 years or so

. It's pretty much everywhere - hips, fingers, etc - but bothers my most in my back and shoulders/neck. I tried pregabalin last year and found that it made me extremely tired and barely helped the pain, so I came off it. Instead, I want to try an
anti-depressant this time, possibly amitriptyline or duloxetine in the hope that it won't make me so sleepy.
However, I've faced a lot of backlash when I suggested this to doctors. I'm only 20 so am faced with the "you're too young for painkillers", etc often. I have an NHS pain clinic appointment to discuss my future options- according to the doctor who referred me to it, it's basically a barrier before I can get pain killers. I was wondering if anyone has advice as to how I can be pushy/insistent when I describe what I know I need, without being rude? I've been to this pain clinic before and have found it very patronising and not helpful- I know how to manage my own pain, just need painkillers to facilitate that.
Also, although I know everyone's different, I'd be interested to hear if anyone here has had success with anti-depressants for pain!
Also, I reckon they'll try to offer me psychological support instead of physical. I don't want this at all. I'm probably depressed from living much of my life in pain, so would rather find a way to decrease the pain. I know through experience that even a whisper of mental health can quickly prompt them to label all symptoms as psychological, so I'm not taking that risk. However, I obviously can't tell the doctors that I'm suspicious of them in that regard! I was wondering if anyone knows how I can justify my lack of interest in psychological therapy? I
am struggling mentally and denying it might make it seem like my pain isn't that bad when it
is, so I'm not sure what to do.
Thanks so much for reading this