Work search depression

Glen1981

I am doing a work placement which I love 

part of it is to plan for future work elsewhere

But I burst into tears every time I try, get shakes, suicidal thoughts (which have passed and are not an issue) and a feeling of uselessness, hopelessness and that I will never have a job I want to be happy. 

It’s crippling and makes it impossible to put the effort into applying for jobs or planning for interviews.

I have had therapy for 2 years and am otherwise doing well. 

It is small issues that I can find no “cure” for, or work arounds.

I never did well with crowds, busy indoor environments, exams, form filling or job applications and interviews.

But these causes of anxiety and discomfort have now become overwhelming and seriously effecting my ability to function at all.


I am just exhausted and not want the pain anymore.(I am not currently suicidal and these thoughts are not overwhelming and I am managing them) 

m just looking for advice and any links, I have weekly counselling so will bring it up with my counsellor tomorrow. Just want to get it all off my chest so I can get back to work placement for the day. 

Sandy_123

Hi @Glen1981 it's good your able to talk this through with your councillor tomorrow, what kind of links were you looking for? What job rolls would suit you.

Tori_Scope

Thank you for sharing this with us @Glen1981.

feeling of uselessness, hopelessness and that I will never have a job I want to be happy. 

Have you been able to pinpoint why thinking about future work brings up these sorts of feelings? This is something you might be able to work through with your counsellor. 

I never did well with crowds, busy indoor environments, exams, form filling or job applications and interviews.

There are plenty of jobs that don't involve being around crowds of people, or in busy indoor environments, so I think there'll be suitable options out there for you

In terms of job applications and interviews, you could consider whether asking for some reasonable adjustments could help you to feel more comfortable. We have some information about this on our website.

One of our employment services may also be able to help you feel more confident in searching and applying for suitable work. 

Glen1981

thanks for thanks for the links I will try the employment services 

Tori_Scope

Great @Glen1981 Let us know how you get on!

KITTYCAT88

I have the issue that I can't be successful in my career. Cause I feel like I'm to dumb and going to fail. Like it a wall that I can't get pass. It's hard for me to do something cause I feel that I going to **** it up. I fighting with depression all the time. But the only thing me from giving in is that all the people away me think that I will fall and give in to it.i just can't have that  on my name. Sorry but I saw this post and I had to share.

Tori_Scope

I'm sorry to hear that you've been having these challenging thoughts @KITTYCAT88. 

Is there anything in particular that makes you feel 'dumb', or like you're going to 'fail' at work? I'm sure that's not the case. We all have different skills and aptitudes, as well as things we're less good at. 

Are you receiving any support to help you manage your depression at the moment? 

It also sounds as though some of the people around you perhaps aren't as positive as they could be. Do you have many positive people in your life who help you to succeed in what you want to do?

KITTYCAT88

I really don't have ppl . I don't talk to my family cause they always put me down. Like I just a number in the family. If that sense. Like that have to love me because im in the family. I other talk to my parents cause they are the people that rise me. I feel like that people understand me. I. A loyal and have a big heart. Someone need me I be their. It could be at any time. No I just use music for depression. Joe neston is recover addicted but I take his music in a depression way not a addicted way. I try to even look up specialist for dyspraxia but their is no one in united States .

Tori_Scope

We're a charity based in England and Wales, so I don't have too much knowledge about what support is available over in the US unfortunately @KITTYCAT88. When I searched online, I found Dyspraxia Foundation USA. I don't know what kind of services they offer, but it might be worth getting in touch with them?  

Your primary care doctor may also be able to point you in the direction of some specialist support.

Asides from that, I'd encourage you to try and join some social groups or events. This can be a good way of meeting likeminded people, and making new connections. Is that something you'd feel able to do? 

I'm not familar with Joe Neston's music. Do you have any song recommendations? 

KITTYCAT88

Joe nester the song - bullying.. anxiety. I will check the dyspraxia foundation usa

L_Volunteer

Good luck with accessing support from the Dyspraxia Foundation USA @KITTYCAT88. If you just need a listening ear, we are here for you